Dramatically Simple ♥

Teach me to...

2012-01-29T00:10:00.002+08:00

Teach me to love even if i don't want to...

Teach me.

Teach me to be the person i should be...

Teach me.

Teach me to seek you even in the worst times or the best times.

Teach me.

Teach me to hold everything close to my heart.

Teach me.

Teach me to forgive others even if i don't want to...

Teach me.

Teach me not to care about how others think, but to focus on what You think.

Teach me.

Teach me to care for others even if i don't want to...

Teach me.

Teach me, Lord... Teach me. :'/

Simply cause i believe in it.

2012-01-28T17:54:00.000+08:00

my current devotional book now :)
yet i think its probably the best one i've ever had.

Too often, stress is my companion, chaos fills my schedule, and grumpiness defines my attitude.

but i pray that He'll help me to concentrate on the good things in my life.

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i've just got the saddest news of all.

my ns friend broke up with my another ns friend.

u have no idea how sad i feel for what i've just listened.

i feel so heartbroken :(
as if i was the one who got dumped. =.=
but really, i thought they'll last.

like c'mon. they were my close friend in NS wei.

SOBS.

if only everything last forever :'(

SIGHHH

why don't i feel the hype?

2012-01-22T21:50:00.001+08:00

Probably CNY is just like any other day to me now.

when i was WAY much younger, I've always been looking forward to CNY,

but now i feel like i've just grew out of it.

LOL!

Basically cause after dinner, we don't play as much as we used to as cousins anymore.
or there isn't much laughter around the house anymore. (grandma's house)

how i miss being a child sometimes...
how i miss the old times...
okay, maybe all the time. :/

le sigh.

So this new year, i'm just gonna be staying at home and yea.. :/

probably gonna go shopping alone?

mom is in johor.
2nd sis going back to pahang with her bf's family.

first sis busy with her bf's family.

ho hum. its funny how on chinese new year, my family splits up like a banana split.

but even then, i think i'm so used to it?
every year is like that so.. haha.

the only reason now i ever look forward to CNY, its definitely cause of the holidays.

and one day, if i ever get a family of my own...
this shall not repeat again...

out.

What has been running through my mind...

2012-01-18T00:43:00.001+08:00

Well, i am finally getting the mood to blog again..

Things has been pretty messy.

To be precise, life feels like a garbage.

Everything u see, smell or feel is unpleasant.

well, before this la...

I shall pour our my heart now.

The first thing that made me feel like a trash was definitely cause

i find myself slowly drifting away from God?

I wasn't doing my devotion regularly as i normally would.
I wasn't reading my bible as frequent as i should be.

i was so caught up with what i have to deal with life, i've been abandoning my relationship with The Father....

How guilty I feel, you've no idea...

Secondly,

life in college has been driving me nuts.

So i was given this placement test on the first day of orientation.
As much as i haven't been writing ever since SPM ended, i screwed up the paper cause i didn't get into

Eng4U, the one that Hsuzen said i must get.

and yes, i was really devastated actually.

my dream of trying to even get a scholarship or even try to go overseas has been thrown into the sea.
So i heard we could apply, and i did.

i had to do an exam again to determine whether i deserve or not.
according to my teacher, i might struggle?

The expectations from my mom and fly plus with the whole idea or me wanting to try to go overseas just burns as i heard what my lecturer said. :'(

but yeah, she said i could try. and if its too hard, i can come back to the other class.
Knowing myself, i know once i've been transferred, i'm never really gonna come back?

so yeah, i just hope i don't die there. sigh....
and yes, i really need to score? :'(

Apart from that whole class placement thing, college has been such a pain.
Yes, i did make a lot of friends, but somehow its just hard to find someone u can really connect to?
I did but the cruel college made all our schedule different and all.
the weirdest part about this intake is that most of the ppl came from a same school.
so can u imagine how close they already are and i feel like a total outsider?

but things are definitely getting better each day.
people in college are so serious, i kinda dislike it a lot.

I kinda miss ppl like evelyn wong being such a total crazy girl in high school.

yes, so hard to find someone who can be as crazy as you.
and because college, everyone is so serious, i get home feeling dull.

Next, finding parking in college is a PAIN!

Driving to college every morning has its consequences u gotta endure okay.
finding parking in SUNWAY is such a backside seriously.

I hate the fact that they are trying to build the parking lot now for the new generation

and our generation gotta suffer. grrr.

so before this all my 8.30 class, i somehow am always late. not just finding parking, but the jam in the morning IS A BIG problem to me as well.
so i decided to change my schedule and my subject.
had to drop maths and take it in sem2.

i have been stuck in a jam for an hour before and i was late for class.
urgh. never wanna go through that again.

and because of all this crap, i have been becoming a beast.
I'm like so annoyed at the ppl who are annoying.

i can control if i must, but this time, i blow when i come across it.
so yeah, if i did blow, i'm sorry...

I've been losing my patience towards my mom as well.
I've been quarreling with her for almost everyday last week and it tore me apart.
there was this once, i was so mad, i nearly got myself into an accident.
yeah, that shows how much i put my emotions when i'm driving.

all these shit has just made my 2012 even worst.

to the extend i broke down a few several times in a day cause i just couldn't stand.

I was blaming God the whole time.
I was throwing all kinds of words that i shouldn't be saying.

i was just so tired of so many things.
I was telling myself how much i don't wanna go church the next day as well

cause i feel like i don't belong there anymore.

how can a christian like me turned out to be something like that...

yes, u have no idea how much i told God, i didn't wanna go church anymore

cause i don't think i belong there.

i was very disappointed at myself...
i feel ugly inside. so ugly.
I hated how i turned out to be.
I hated how i reacted towards something that hits me.

i hated myself.

but at the end of the day, i was slowly finding reasons for me to be alive.
the next day, i talked to grace and i just broke down.
i couldn't really speak properly cause i was sobbing.

i honestly feel guilty cause i wasn't being a christian that i should be.

i was in a total mess.

i needed someone to just pray for me and give me the hope to believe in myself and God again..
Thank God for Grace.

I felt a whole lot better after pouring out everything to her.

and i'm slowly walking back to God again..

sorry to those whom i lost my patience with and all.
my monthly visitor is terribly late and i'm just having a hard time with myself?

i need a break from pressuring myself with "i need to do my best in college"
i need a break from trying to fit in.
I need a break from everything.

and i will heal.

i honestly don't understand...

2012-01-16T02:21:00.000+08:00

somethings in life i just don't understand.

i feel horrible for being who i am right now.
sigh.
yelling is so not the right way to solve anything...

i honestly hate so many things right now.
but i thank God for Grace...

poured out everything and i feel a whole lot lighter in a way.

no doubt my life still sucks, but i have to hold on and believe that

there's a Father who loves me and therefore, i have to love myself.

sigh :'/

2012 is indeed gonna be a hard year..

Praise God for a great year. :')

2012-01-07T01:22:00.000+08:00

I'll start with what i blogged last year jan 1. :)

i made a few resolution for myself last year.
as sad as it seems, i don't think i managed to accomplish all of 'em :'(

BUT whatever it is, God's plan is always the best :)

and i honestly wanna take this time to THANK GOD SO MUCH for a wonderful 2011

that i never expect it would be this great.

i've learned so much from 2011. so so much. :')

Praise God.

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FLASH BACK 2011!

No.1

Hsuzen leaving malaysia on the very first day.

it was such an emotional day i tell you.
we sent her off to the airport and i remember crying so much on that day.
up till now i miss her so much. :'(
She has been such a great friend.

one of my resolution was to keep in touch with her still.
Praise God that i still do :)
I just can't stop thanking God for giving me such a wonderful friend like hsuzen :')

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No.2

at one point there were so many ppl leaving this earth.
it was quite scary to hear all the bad news around..

one of it is my Uncle's funeral. :'/

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No.3

My very first time working outside for ppl :)
working in KimchiHaru was great :)
although it was SUPER tiring, but i actually enjoyed working there

cause the boss there is lovely :')

oh how i miss them so much :)
they give me such a good impression on koreans :)

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No.4

My craziness over JB. -.-"

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No.5

going to the free-trial gym with James and David :)
oh how i miss those times... :')

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no.6

Passing my driving test and getting my license! :D
Praise be to God!

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No.7

hahaaaa SPM RESULTS -.-"

but yeah, Praise God for giving me an A for maths

although i didn't answer about 20 questions for paper 1.

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no.8

Learning how to do house chores like

cooking, cleaning and taking care of my step dad's mom. :)

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No.9

NATIONAL SERVICE BATCH 2 :)

to be honest, this was definitely the highlight of my year cause it was my one and only camp that i actually went.

I've met amazing friends.
gained friends that i'll never forget in my life.
moved on and start a whole fresh new interest in someone.
Learning about God's word.
more dependable on God.
stronger.

I honestly thought this camp would be nothing but a waste of time.
but now i would seriously encourage ppl to really have the chance of feeling something that not everyone have the chance to do so :)

and because of NS, i pushed college to this year.

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No.10

Working for fly for about almost 3 month.

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No.11

Grace becoming my mentor :)
I honestly wanna thank God for this.

I've not just grown closer to her, but i've learned so much more about life and God.

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No.12

Planetshakers concert!

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Being able to see Jayesslee :))

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no.13

trip to Logos Hope :)

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No.14

Choir Practice and Skit Practice!

I've definitely grown closer to the church members this year :))
and serving the Lord, is just such a nice feeling.
no not cause u get those credits at the end of the production.
but because u know everything u do, you do to bring Glory to God :))

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no.15

Caroling !

this experience is :')

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no.16

Joanna back in MALAYSIA! :))

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no.17

Malacca Trip with besties :)

i'm so glad we finally had a trip together :)

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no.18

Creative Arts Practices :))

Praise God for the outcome :))

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this year passed wayyy too fast seriously.
but every little thing, i'm thankful for it ;)

wanna thank all my awesome friends out there who made 2011, a ONE AWESOME YEAR ;)

Besties.
Church Friends
Ns Friends

luff you guysss !

You're my all in all.

2011-12-31T00:52:00.000+08:00

Blessed Christmas!
haha its not too late to wish here right? :P

How was your christmas?
Mine was pretty okay.

But on Christmas, its not about me so despite whatever i feel on that day,

it was a day we should all remember the true meaning of Christmas ;)

Its not about the gifts or fancy christmas tree.. or TURKEY.

Its much more than that :P

HAHAHAHA too much of skit? :P

Christmas production was good :)

It turned out well and Thank God :)

all in all, it was great working with James lee, David tham, James lim and Alycia tan :))
I definitely had a great time practicing with them and etc. :))

and i am gonna miss this very much.
this definitely just bloomed up my december :))

Next, choir. :))

How blessed i am to be able to be a part of this choir team :)
I'm gonna miss caroling and practices after practices :))

Thank God for Kay Lyn and Ruth as well for they've been such a blessing :)
and thank the AV team for making all of this happen. :)

Praise be to God :D

Praise God that my both parents came to church on that day ;)
my step dad and my mommmmyy!

and did i tell you the bought a new car? yeap.

and did i tell you the toyota altis is officially mine? :)
All Glory be to God :)

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and i have this big question in my head...

i just wanna know so bad....

doubts comes all the time.
but yet i feel like its not the same.

YUDOINGTHISTOMELAH. :'(

SIGH.

goodbye.
the next time i post, would probably be next year.

Blessed New Year to all! *hugs*

He loves you and I ;)

2011-12-18T20:56:00.002+08:00

First, Joanna Ling is finally in Malaysia :)
Thank God for bringing her to Malaysia safely :)))

Anyways, haha Joanna is such a darling, she brought back

7 clothes only and the rest of it are all FOOD and presents. xD

Such a darling right? :'D

Yeap that's right :P

yeap that's her :P HAHA ♥

NEXT.

Caroling ♥
i love caroling :)

especially when you know you're singing it to and for the One and ONLY ;)

and caroling has definitely brought me closer to them as well :')

Definitely gonna miss this team after Christmas :/

Caroling in front of the orphanage and drugs rehab centre made caroling just so much more meaningful. ♥ seriously..

And this Christmas 2011 is probably by far the most i can really learn from. What a true meaning of Christmas :')

Praise be to God.

No chain is strong enough
No choice is wrong enough
No mountain high enough that He
can't climb

No shadow dark enough
No night is black enough
No road is lost enough that He can't find

And if the Son has set us free
Then we must be, free indeed
Let the chains fall away, starting today
Everything has changed
I'm finally free

No pain is deep enough
No heart could bleed enough
Nothing but Jesus' love can make a way

And if the Son has set us free
Then we must be, free indeed
Let the chains fall away, starting today
Everything has changed
I'm finally free

I'm blessed.

God, you know whats best for me...

Countdown to Christmas : 6 more days!

and the countdown begins... :)

2011-12-16T23:26:00.003+08:00

Okay, time is flying uber fast and i'm getting nervous in all sorts of ways.

*gulp*

anyways, I'm back from Malacca :D

Malacca was good. As a matter of fact, it was a blast ;)
Except the part where everyone start falling sick because of the food we ate. :P

But really. My very first trip with them and i honestly miss so much of it.
and plus, with a great 'view' there.. No regrets :P HAHA!

And the trip really made a difference to my december month :D
Praise God for everything! :')

Anyways, met a new friend, Daniel Fong. Okay, although i met him before in physics tuition,

but i haven't exactly actually said hi and stuff so yeap :)

It was good. ALL was good :)

Thank God for the safe journey there and back :)
Thank God for a wonderful time there :)
Thank God everyone is well now. xD

ALL GLORY BE TO GOD!

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Anyways,

today we had our very first caroling in jaya one :)

Such a good experience.
i've always wanted to know how it feels to do caroling! :)

We had free drinks from Sharetea and Free food from Tappers. :)
God bless them (:
Everything went smoothly and it was such a blessing to be able to do this wei :')
Praise God!

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On the other hand, I've got another good news. :)
My Step dad is getting his new car the coming wednesday.
and therefore, his toyota altis will be given to me :)
Praise be to God :')

when the moment i got the news from my mom,
u've no idea how i felt wei.

seriously, God is indeed a great provider :')

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Joanna Ling is finally coming down tomorrow adi! :)

May God be with her throughout the whole journey and bring her safe and sound back to Malaysia :)

that's all i think i wanna update for now.

Countdown : 8 more days to Christmas!

that means 8 more days to skit and choir performance :O
the year is ending super fast...

somehow i wish i could pause this moment and make it last forever.

i miss this uber much. :') definitely another highlight of my 2011 :')

i'm holding on.

2011-12-12T03:14:00.000+08:00

Hu haaa. i hardly bloggin on december cause

its such a busy month.

but anyways,

i'm going melaka tmr so i'll update soon.

Do this personality test :)

2011-12-11T00:34:00.002+08:00

http://personality.visualdna.com/1/index.php

Grabbed this from lilia's blog :P

My results :

Spirit
You're a Seeker. You believe in living life to the fullest. You're curious and enthusiastic with a bright spirit that is an inspiration to your friends and family. A sensitive soul with an expressive nature, you tend to be quite a romantic at heart. Sometimes you love nothing more than escaping into your very own dreamworld. Spontaneous new experiences can be really inspiring to you and you like exploring your creative side from time to time. Right now, life probably feels pretty good. You have a healthy balanced attitude and know how to take the good with the bad. You're feeling comfortable in your own skin. You have a healthy approach to life. Having a regular spiritual practice that gives you a sense of inner peace is one of your priorities. Allowing yourself that kind of time for reflection will have a positive effect. It's important to remember to tap into your inner strength and to believe in yourself. Take on new challenges and stay stimulated so you remain enthusiastic and inspired by life. As a Seeker, you get excited by new ideas. You like adventure and original experiences that stimulate and challenge your status quo. Stay inspired with a rich mix of activities, and find time for hobbies that allow you to explore your creative side. Learn to recognize when you need variety in your life, and then incorporate it into your daily plans. You have a natural sense of the importance of quiet reflection on your hopes and desires. Your faith is a wonderful gift that gives you strength and support in everything you do. Even if you have a busy schedule, make sure you have the confidence to carve out that space for yourself.

Relationship
You would like to be able to share your spiritual side with your new partner. Feeling at peace with the world comes naturally when you're travelling life's path with your soulmate. You're a deeply passionate person and will go to extreme lengths for love. You're naturally open and find it easy to make connections. It's all about intuition and chemistry and being swept off your feet. Love means opening yourself up to intense experiences that you'll remember for the rest of your life. You are expressive and sensual and, so making a strong physical connection is important to you. It feels really good to lose yourself in the moment. There's nothing like being in love to put a smile on your face, butterflies in your stomach and a spring in your step.
Relationship tips:

So you're Passionate but what tips can we give for when you're looking for love?

Take it easy. Allowing your new relationship to develop gradually would be a really healthy approach for you. Slow and steady wins the race in this case.
Make friends. Connecting on a physical level is really important to you. But set strong foundations by getting to know each other first.
Slow and steady wins the race. Take things at a sensible pace so you'll keep your feet on the ground and stay realistic about what will work in your everyday life.
You are naturally warm and trusting. Just make sure to follow your instincts and listen to your head as well as your heart before diving in too deep.

Money
The way to your heart is through your stomach! While you're happy to get creative in the kitchen, you'd love to be able to eat in amazing restaurants whenever the mood strikes. You have a very healthy approach to life. You know that true happiness doesn't come from material things or possessions. It goes much deeper than that and is all about valuing those things you can't put a price on. You like to care for those around you, and if they're happy, you're happy. You appreciate that both highs and lows make up the balance of life and you always try and stay spiritually strong and focused.

Health
Unappealing as it may seem, it would be good to try to be a bit more active every day. You might be surprised at how much you'd actually enjoy regular exercise. It may sound hard to believe, but endorphins are better than chocolate if you just give them a chance! You may even find that you're in a better mood more often. Start off with something that isn't too intimidating, like climbing the stairs instead of taking the elevator. You might even consider signing up for a few personal training sessions in the gym so that you have a program that's tailored just for you. You may need to think about making a few changes what you eat too. Maybe you could try making homemade versions of your favorite restaurant meals to reduce the sodium and fat content and eat healthier without compromising too much on taste.

Home
If you were given the opportunity to live your dream life, chances are you'd feel more at home settled in a cute country cottage than living it up in a mansion. Your low-key attitude means you'd prefer to get away from the stresses of city life and take it easy, perhaps spending your time in a colorful garden. Fresh air, birds chirping and home-grown veggies for dinner...what's not to like?

Entertainment
You're an outdoorsy person, happiest when you can get out into the fresh air and explore what the countryside has to offer. You can't beat a few quiet hours in the peace of nature to be alone with your thoughts. Perfect for feeling refreshed and rejuvenated!

Style
You're so laid-back, you're almost horizontal! You like to take life as it comes and enjoy all it has to offer. Your practical style reflects your down-to-earth, relaxed attitude. Why stress out over finding heels to match your dress when you could be out having fun in the sun and living life to the fullest? In fact, sun-kissed skin and surf-tousled hair are the perfect accessories for your look. Just make sure you don't forget the SPF!

Travel
You're intuitive and find the beauty of nature visually inspiring. For you, getting away from it all means just that. Escaping into nature and heading off the beaten track is what you live for. It's the perfect way to unwind and recharge those batteries. And let's face it: Sitting out under the stars can be very romantic!

Finally, stepping into the cinema :P

2011-12-09T17:35:00.001+08:00

So yesterday, I watched...

Breaking dawn! :)

Finalleh.
and it was pretty awesome. :)
I actually really like this part compared to the before ones :P
such a romantic movie :)
and probably cause i love wedding so much, so seeing a wedding scene is just nice.
don't know how to explain that feeling :P

but THUMBS UP WEI. a must watch ;)

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Next, I watched this today :)

this movie turned out to be the exact opposite with what i expected man.

i thought its just gonna be like another valentine's day movie

but the ending was super :)

valentine's day didn't had a very great msg.
but this movie is awesome :)

although the starting was a little bit mehh?
the ending was just lovely :')

and i cried. gosh. yes i cried cause there was such a touching scene :')

and lea michele's singing just made me cry even more. gosh.

but super awesome and funny movie ;)
double thumbs up for the ending!
MUST WATCH MOVIEEEE!

and this movie is making me love this month even more ;)

Such a beautiful mess.

2011-12-07T01:33:00.001+08:00

A random update with no reason. :)

I think i just inherited my sister's disease.

no not the vain part.

but the EYE BAGS. can u just look at that thing below my eyes?!
i think its like permanent. No matter how much i sleep or how little i sleep. xD

its so terrible D':
and no i didn't edit this pic a single thing so that eye bags is that deep.

okay maybe real life is worst. :S

i should just stick to this. :P hahaha :(

i like the box. so random.

Jaya 33 punya deco :)
feel like pulling out those ginger bread man and hang in my room.

HAHAHAHA

finally got my book :)
love RBC u know. ;)
they're always sending good and free stuff :)
God bless them very much :D

comeee :)
choir and skit hoho.

so yeah, today i was day dreaming in the bus.

the bus passed by One utama and i was like blur sitting down there dreaming of I DON'T KNOW WHAT.

i ended up here.

yeah. i was stuck there waiting for another bus to pick me up.

embarrassing BETUL. D:

so like i got a handbag that i've been wanting for quite some time.
i've always wanted a handbag with lots of compartment and finally got it today :)
my money just flew out like that but yeah, i hope this bag last long. :S

wanted to get a jacket from uniqlo today too but because of the bag, i decided not to buy.
the jacket can wait?
wait till when college comes, when i really need it right. yeah. :S

goodbyes..

facepalm moment xD

2011-12-06T11:32:00.000+08:00

This ad is just way too funny. xD

i feel so lifeless watching nonsense on youtube wei... xD

Wanna movie marathon with me? :P

2011-12-06T00:20:00.000+08:00

I WANNA WATCH MOVIES SO BAD i can run to the cinemas now.

but yeah, it wouldn't be nice watching alonneee :'(

So anyways, this movie is still on apparently. just in 2D.

I die also wanna watch. its only until wed :'(

Okay, imma gonna drag WHOEVER i can. :X

i wanna watch this tooooo! so cute :'D

And this hahahaha! :P

so yes, christmas month needs a christmas movie :)

so i gotta watch this movie. heard from a friend said its actually not bad at all :)

steven speilberg dude. must watch :)

HAHA i wanna watch this too xD

This looks pretty interesting :)
wanna watch it toooooo :D

oh and this. You're the APPLE OF MY EYE :)
heard from ppl saying that its a really good movie.
although its in mandarin but yeah :)

gotta watch this too man. coming out this week. teeheee :)

and this. apparently its a very sad moveh.

so yeap. :)

i like sad movies :P

HAHA okay. i SERIOUSLY NEED TO DRAG someone :P
nyommm!

Tired of running on this race track.

2011-12-05T01:49:00.000+08:00

This video is crazy!
But amazing wei. They throw human like throwing plastic board or something.
but super amazing. (Y) (Y)

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The feeling of...

when u wanted something so much and thought that that's what you needed and everything u've been looking for...
but suddenly u just feel like it doesn't fit you?

oh how much i hate this feeling.
cause this leads to giving up...

and it was definitely not your imperfections that made me felt this way.
it was just, something was definitely missing. this big SOMETHING.
too much similarity yet it does not feel right.

and i can be really dumb sometimes.

I KNOW about something

but i pretend like i completely never noticed about it. -.-"

i'm SO DUMB.

LITERALLY!

But yeah, i'm not supposed to be sad if i feel this way right?
but i am? very indeed. i felt like i've just lost this part of me?
even though i'm not supposed to feel this way... o.O

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and the feeling when you're the only one screwing up.
and you're so stressed about it but you don't know what to do but cry.
i should just stick to dancing only next time.

where did my passion went wei.
WHERE DID IT GO. URGH.
i don't know why i'm not working hard enough.

i'm supposed to be serving with all my heart.
but i'm losing myself?
i think the problem is within me. i'm just falling apart... literally.

i've got like no mood for anything right now cause i feel like i'm screwing up even more day BY day.

and its not supposed to be like that cause December its supposed to be a good month right.

why does it feel so wrong then?.. :'/

i get pulled down so easily that its just making things worst.
and i'm blaming myself so much for this.

and i guess my biggest mistake is to even feel this way.
cause i'm supposed to believe that God's strength is far greater than anything i feel or am worrying about.
#guilt

feel like plucking my eye balls off now.

(worst feeling ever)

2011-12-04T19:18:00.001+08:00

urgh getting very annoyed d.

probably a pms mode.

urgh. i feel like crying.

As you do everything you do to the glory of the One who made you.

2011-12-03T23:02:00.005+08:00

Helloo.

Its finally december :)

okay i've got a few stuff to say.

This morning i received a pretty shocking news.

My Step dad's Mother passed away on the bed.
old age while hugging her bolster.

although i'm not so close to her but i did took care of her last time so.. kinda bummed?

i remember cooking for her and talking to her and etc.

few things she ALWAYS remind me:

Always find a guy that is smart enough. Lol-ed.

Rest In Peace popo.. :'/

but i'm glad she passed away peacefully...

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2 verse that i gotta always remind myself especially this month (:
Why? Cause i'm involved in Christmas skit, Caroling, Choir and Watchnight service. and whoah, honestly i've never done this much in church before. Normally i'd just stick to one and that is Dancing.

1) Luke 10:38-42 (James shared during skit practice today :) )
³⁸ As Jesus and his disciples were on their way, he came to a village where a woman named Martha opened her home to him. ³⁹ She had a sister called Mary, who sat at the Lord’s feet listening to what he said. ⁴⁰ But Martha was distracted by all the preparations that had to be made. She came to him and asked, “Lord, don’t you care that my sister has left me to do the work by myself? Tell her to help me!”
⁴¹ “Martha, Martha,” the Lord answered, “you are worried and upset about many things, ⁴² but few things are needed—or indeed only one.^[a] Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her.”

2) 1 Peter 4:10-11 (Selina shared during C.A.M practice today)
¹⁰ Each of you should use whatever gift you have received to serve others, as faithful stewards of God’s grace in its various forms. ¹¹ If anyone speaks, they should do so as one who speaks the very words of God. If anyone serves, they should do so with the strength God provides, so that in all things God may be praised through Jesus Christ. To him be the glory and the power for ever and ever. Amen.

And to be honest i came home today tired like a rotten cabbage.
Didn't really had the strength to even get ready for dinner.
With all the acting, dancing, lack of sleep and my monthly visitor just came today.

But u know what, nothing makes me happier than knowing that all this is all worth it cause you're doing it for the One who deserves more than anything in this world. :)

The song Do Everything by Steven Curtis Chapman suits everything right now :)
such a wonderful song. :))) and yeap. Selina picked this song for C.A.M dance and probably with an additional song. But i think this song is awesome although its very different from what C.A.M would normally do. :)

The lyrics of the song is just lovely :)

"As you do everything you do to the glory of the One who made you" :)

and i'm kinda loving December. For the fact i'm not working but i'm doing something that i actually love :)

i'm pretty afraid of all the things happening around me cause i'm quite scared like i can't cope up with things or screw up here and there, etcccccc!

but yeah. simple reminder like today is good :)
Knowing that no matter what you do, you do it with your heart for God :)

and thats what it ALL matters :)

The feeling of like God is looking down and watching everything happily while smiling :D
(its my imagination but yet it feels so right)

gosh i'm so weird.

hehe this baby dog is too cute :)

May this December be a month to remember :))
and i constantly pray and pray for every little thing.

oh and its my 2nd sister and my aunty's bday today :)

Blessed Birthday to them both :D May God's blessing filled their life and
may my 2nd sister come to know Christ as soon as possible :D

All Glory be to God. :D

I tend to react the opposite sometimes.. :/

2011-11-29T16:15:00.002+08:00

Things i don't intend to do but i do it anyway.

1) I tend to show like i don't know you're there and i'm busy concentrating on whatever i'm doing.
When i actually know you're there and all i feel like doing is just probably giving you a hug?

2) I tend to pretend like i forget certain stuff about you.
when actually every single memories about u is in my head !

3) I tend to show like i'm not interested at all in whatever u're doing.
but actually i notice every single thing?

4) I can't say things what i wanna say when you're around.
but actual fact, i've tons of stuff i wanna talk to you about.

5) I tend to act all dumb not knowing whats going on.
but i actually do...

sigh.

and u know what, i think i've just let something slip away from my very own hands 4 months ago.
what was i really thinking...... seriously.

Perhaps my prayers has been answered and its time to move on.

cause i can honestly finally admit, things are not the same anymore..

A girl thing.

2011-11-29T11:03:00.001+08:00

Okay if only i wasn't THIS short.. :'(

how i wish i had longer legs...

then wearing dresses or shorts wouldn't look funny on me. :'(

and i have decided to wear a WHITE dress on my sis' wedding :P

haha its like SO END OF NEXT YEAR and i'm already planning what to wear and etc. :P

but yah. so hard to pick a dress not too long for me but a short dress.

getit? nvm. LOL!

okayyy! tmr is my last day of work! :)

YIIPEEEEE :D

26 more days to CHRISTMAS :D
oh boyy.. that means 26 more days to choir and skit...

oh boy oh boyyy!

:S

This is indeed a very nice story book :')

2011-11-25T15:37:00.000+08:00

super interesting book.

Never expected this book to turned out to be that nice to read. hahaha

For the record, i cried twice half way reading this book.

funny right? I can even cry while reading a book -.-"

but really. so touching and sad.
but very meaningful :)

and i love it!
totally feel like buying more of mitch albom's books now haha

The moment you know its not gonna be the same anymore..

2011-11-25T13:09:00.006+08:00

ho hum.
look at my eye bags wei.

Its getting darker each day by day.
i had to use instagram punya effect to make it look not so bad.
but trust me, i look like a dead zombie.

and the picture totally describe how i'm feeling right now. yeah just can't smile?
i feel so bleh. november is not such a jolly month i don't know why.
i don't feel happy.

everything seems to hit me.
Family, guy friends, and even the person i like?

at the end of the day, i feel horrible.

I wake up falling in love with the memories.
i guess that every reason why i can hold on really long.

but i just gotta wake up sometimes.

for whats gone is gone. Its just not gonna happen again?

here we go again.

so right now i've a guy friend who keeps stuff behind my back
another guy friend who lies
and another guy friend who calls me out only when he needs me.

yah. i'msohappy

and its so freaking hard to just close ur eyes and pretend that u're okay when you're CERTAINLY MOST NOT.

got my caller ringtone again.
If that's the way you love
You've got to learn so much
If that's the way you say goodbye

And this is how it ends
And I'm alright within
Never going to see me cry
Cause I've cried

Chorus:
So go on, go on and break my heart
I'll be okay
There's nothing you can do to me
That's ever going to burn me

So go on, go on and leave my love
Out on the street
I'm fearless
Better believe I'm fearless, fearless

so oh woh oh woh oh.....

If this is how it hurts
It couldn't get much worse
If this is how it feels to fall

Then that's the way it is
We live with what we miss
We learn to build another wall
Till it falls

Chorus:
So go on go on and break my heart
I'll be okay
There's nothing you can do to me
That's ever going to burn me

So go on, go on and leave my love
Out on the street
I'm fearless
Better believe I'm fearless, fearless

So oh woh oh woh....

If it's between love and losing
To never have known the feeling
And I'm still sad we've loved

And if I end up lonely
At least I will be there knowing
I believe in love

Go on, go on break my heart
I'll be okay
I'm fearless
Better believe I'm fearless, fearless

Go on, go on and break my heart
I'll be okay
There's nothing you can do to me
That's ever going to burn me

So go on, go on and leave my love
Out on the street
I'm fearless
Better believe I'm fearless

So oh woh oh....

So go on and leave my love
Go on and leave my love
Go on and leave my love
Better believe I'm fearless, fearless
fearless,....
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Fearless by Colbie Caillat
totally suits me right now.

its gonna be a busy december.

2011-11-24T09:52:00.001+08:00

And maybe jasmine was right.
November has been pretty bad to the most of us.

For the fact that you purposely hide something from me,

is enough for me to get mad even though its a small thing.

I hate it when someone purposely tries to hide something from me.
not for the better.

so tempted to burst the bubble but i know it'll just make things worst. sigh.

#burns

Random: I hate the fact that one day i can drive nicely. and the next day i'm like nehh?
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Anyways, December is gonna be a very busy month.

1) will be helping out the kids in church on 1st & 2nd dec
2) Choir
3) Caroling
3) Christmas Skit
4) Joanna's arrival
5) Outing with Ns friends
6) Malacca trip
7) Creative Arts Ministry
8) Buying college stuff
9) Driving lessons more and more with parents before they give me the car in jan.
10) buy laptop/ buy study table for condo/settling college fees

nyommm. december is gonna be busy.
a lot of memorizing here and there.
Remembering dance moves, lines and notes. goshh..
but i'd rather have a busy month than a not doing anything month. (:

Praise be to God !
even in the hardest times.

This world is filled with broken people.

2011-11-22T16:19:00.005+08:00

And I'm One of Them.

Just go out for a walk as just look everyone around you.
This world is filled with broken people.
People finding the most precious thing in life but they constantly fail to do so.

Sometimes I feel like i'm having a war with myself.
No really. I'm trying so hard to refrain from feeling some things sometimes.

Its like as if i'm searching myself or something.

and sometimes i get too down or something, I'll lock myself up in the room, off the lights, play worship songs and just pray. As funny as it sounds, i'll always cry half way praying and when i feel utterly torn apart, i'll start imagining as if Jesus was there just holding me tight and I'll end up crying more than usual. No really. i do it so much that every time i wake up in the morning, i'll end up with puffy eyes. hahas.

But i can tell you, when i do that, i feel a love from above cause i know God will never let me go. I know that it hurts Him more to see that i'm hurting.

I feel like i'm getting more and more emotional. I don't know whether you can actually call this a good thing? Cause yeah, for the little bit that shakes my heart, i'll start crying.

"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead."
For the record, every human tend to fail one another.
No one in the world is perfect.
BUT GOD.

that i can guarantee you that His love is EVERLASTING.

To be honest ah,
I've never truly understood and appreciate what God's love really is until this year.
and I thank God for that. (:

Have you ever had a friend going through so much difficulties with himself/herself? Everyone has their own struggles. Oh this fallen world. People taking medicines to reduce their depression and etc. Such a sad thing to listen isn't it?

I honestly might have just been like that i've never got to know Christ.

But obviously i'm sane enough to know that killing myself is probably the dumbest thing to do la.

but really, I personally think if you let God into your life, you wouldn't

suffer just as much.

and the first thing you gotta learn is ask God to forgive you.

and learn to forgive yourself too (:

Only God's love can make you feel whole again.
taking drugs (medicine) isn't really gonna help actually. *hugs*

And one day, i hope you'll get to feel the Father's love.

Its an amazing love (:

So i'm currently reading this book (:
James lend it to me.

I haven't read finish this book but the first 50 pages is already pretty interesting. :)

It makes me feel like i cannot wait to just die now.
And when i used the word die is also equivalent to a new beginning :)

random : I feel like dancing so bad right now. Glee's fault.

In fact, so much of greater things i haven't seen yet.

I might be going through a hard time just like anybody out there now, but

when i say I'll never give up on my faith, I mean it.

and nothing can separate me from the Father.

Trials is to make you stronger.

and not giving up on something.

this is LIFE.

alrights, goodbye for now. (:

Glee :)

2011-11-22T14:15:00.001+08:00

And maybe this is the type of hip hop i enjoy. :)

not the other type of hip hop.

and every time her performance will always remind me why i like hip hop in the firsstt place :B

and if you haven't watch this, do watch it :)

(Y)

Where did it go?

2011-11-21T18:04:00.001+08:00

I feel.. LOST.

feel like i've lost a part of me.

hrmm does that makes sense?

but no.really.
I feel like i've lost the hyperness.

where's the sanguine side of me? :/

I remember coming back from ns that month, i used to be

so happy.

now as time flies, i'm like turning dull and i've been crying really often.. -.-

i honestly hate crying.

But i cry cause i just feel horrible

and yeah, crying my heart out is probably the only way i can honestly express how hurt i am?

i don't feel as happy as i used to?
everything is just affecting me like crazy and i feel so.. exhausted?

the stuff that i used to be so hyper about becomes nothing to me suddenly?
not nothing but i just got like NO MOOD for this or that.
i feel terrible awful to feel that way really.
i hope its just a temporary feeling.

i do love to be hyper and all hyped about stuff that mean so much to me.
i just don't feel it now..? :'( :'(

and i hate arguing with my parents...

but i guess certain stuff they say, i really disagree strongly.

and being forced again and again to do something

u don't wanna do is just so tiring.

I do support my mom and i love her. but look, i don't like being forced to do something i don't wanna do?

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Sermon was great yesterday.
When Ps.Soon Hock came up crying,

couldn't hold back my tears.
i started tearing as well.

:')

alrights. that's all i wanna blog for today only. Good bye

Inspired to say a few words again.

2011-11-17T16:52:00.001+08:00

HOHO. blogging too much in a day.

anyways, i went over to Kent's blog just now and

I read a post on him saying that

"I was approached by two girls in my college cafeteria, one holding two cups of apple juice and one holding a basket filled with candies and chocolate while showing me a paper. The usual me, interested in knowing but uninterested in participating.

Here she said something that sounded like this
"It's exam season and everyone's stressing, have a candy or chocolate bar from this basket and this drink is for you, may God bless you and your exam. Also, if you're stressed, you can come to the station we set up where you can play board games or sports with us to release tension and stress". Sponsored by Sunway Christian Fellowship (SCF)"

hahah Kent thought they were gonna turn him into christian something like that. haha That is not true kent :)
But i was truly inspired just knowing what the Sunway Christian Fellowship are doing. :)
I cannot wait to join their CF even more now (: Its people like Kent that we really need to reach out to :) Who randomly got up from the bed living a daily life and someone just gives u something and surprise ur day. (: Its these simple things that makes a beautiful picture in life don't you think? :)

Their Ulterior motive of doing that is just to really make you feel loved and just to really say some words of blessing :) Its how people share to you about God's blessing that's all :)

There is more to life than this Kent ;)
and kent, if you're seeing this..

*hugs*

Gotta go all out!

2011-11-17T14:04:00.002+08:00

So i created a new account in
www.thoughts.com

its where people type whatever they think inside and share it with the world. :)

I think its a good way of giving out a good message :)

So i created it!
I haven't started posting anything yet cause pretty afraid of what to type.

Gotta think properly cause inside there are many ppl can just randomly view and respond. so yes.

mine is http://www.thoughts.com/michelelimm

heheee (: the only thing i update was my profile :B

oh and check their website out :)
This website is done by some of my high school friends and samadians as well :)

i think the whole idea of creating this blog is pretty good. :)

GOODBYEEE!

I was definitely wrong.

2011-11-17T11:26:00.005+08:00

Hello Good Morning you :)

Mom and step dad is in Johor now so i had to walk to work today.
I actually enjoyed my walk there ~~apart from the sunny weather today.~~
Cause listening to the perfect song while walking makes everything feels so nice :)

Anyways, yesterday i watched 3 movies :D

Yes that is dakota fanning.

This movie is a good movie. :)

Awesome movie of a father and daughter relationship :')
and yes. i CRIED. xD ~~so sad. not 1 time. but several times okay~~!
cause the father is retarded one but the way he loves his daughter is just.. :')

But the only cons in this show is a bit draggy la so yeah. 2 hours punya movie.

But its still awesome :)

Oh and i watched it on youtube. :)

The full movie is on youtube. how awesome :P

I watched this on youtube too :)

a good movie for young teenage girls. :)

Sad punya movie also so I CRIED of course. xD

but this movie contains a lot of curse word wei.

But overall, good story line :)

and this!
HAHA finally watched it again :)
Awesome la really i love this cause it just makes me happy. xD

the dragon is just too cute too cute!

I wish i had a pet like that too eeekss!
i honestly love ze dragoonnn! ♥

anddd the soundtrack :)
I like Romantic flights, Forbidden Friendship, Test Drive, This is Berk from ze soundtrack :)

EEEKS ♥

I'm probably gonna like watch all my heart out now cause
don't think i'd be able to do this when december comes.

and January start college adi :X

pretty nervous about college too.
like who am i gonna mix with and stuff.
Gotta pray harder on this.

and remember how much i said i wish my life would just end faster

so i could see Jesus faster?

yeah that was definitely out of anger.
and i was definitely wrong.

God gave us this life to make a difference and make the most out of it.
~~and not to wish for it to end faster and what not.~~

My devotion yesterday was talking about this.
I felt awful yesterday after reading it.

but I'm so glad that again, God speaks through me to my devotion.
as a matter of fact, He always does :)

is like as if He was listening.

so if you're reading this, I encourage you to do your devotion daily cause its important.

It might be hard to do it every single day cause of your busy life

but always try to make effort even if its just 15 mins.

and once you keep doing it, you'd realized it becomes a habit already :)

Remember to put God the center of your life :)

I pray for some random unknown to just visit this blog of mine

and i hope someday whatever i post, it'll make a difference for that person (:

Thank you so much zen for your advice. :')

I guess all i needed was to just tell it to someone.

God really did pull me through :)

And i feel a whole lot better :)

amen!

:)

and i really like my picasa. ;)
cause it has ALLLLL the old photos from ZAMAN PALEOLITIK. xD
seriously, so funny looking back at ~~how retarded~~ we all used to look like. xD

especially me... -.-"

hahaha ♥

Love is forever a circle unbroken.

2011-11-16T11:50:00.002+08:00

Automatically when u feel God's love, you just know how to love others as well. :)
cause it comes in a package.

P.S: God never made a promise that was too good to be true. - Dwight L. Moody

Listen to the wind where the sky meets the land
I'm not really gone I've been here all along
High up in the trees in the sound of the leaves
Listen to the wind there's no end to my...

if you like classical music, you should listen to Hayley Westenra's songs :)

Yesterday, james was telling me how much he's into opera now. hahaha! brings back the memories of my craziness of phantom of the opera. I used to hear wishing you were somehow here again by emmy rossum like crazy. xD

I'm not really considered into real opera ish anymore. I like more to classical :)

So Hayley Westenra for the win! :)

actually lisa kelly from celtic woman is pretty amazing too :)

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cut out the hate part.

hrmm....

i wish i could love someone without caring how the person would think/react or what so ever.

cause i've this huge gigantic ball of how much i wanna just love

but one part of me is holding back.

Maybe i gotta start training myself.....

just so great.

2011-11-15T15:50:00.002+08:00

now i not only want a dog.

but i also want a baby panda. :)

HAHA SHOOO CUTEEEEEEEE! ♥

Oh i forgot to blog about Kung Fu Panda 2 last time :)

i watched that movie when i was back from NS for the 5 days of holiday
with my NS friends :)

HAHA did i tell you i cried a little in that movie? :P

but trust me, i was tahan-ing so hard cause i didn't want the person
sitting beside me know that i was tearing... xD

but nice movie :)

someone drag me along with them to the cinemas please.
i haven't been watching for quite some timeeee!

:(

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Did i tell you that my parents are going to johor tmr till friday?
yeap. home alone.

well, not exactly... maid will be in my condo so... Lol!

if only i got the whole house to myself.
I can cook myself and everything. :B how awesome :)

i do like cooking. But now my maid is at home, she'll be doing everything. meh.
not fun...

okay goodbyes.

You're worth it, you can't earn it.

2011-11-15T14:07:00.003+08:00

So i've learned that
if God brings you to it, He'll bring you through it. :)

I'm feeling a whole lot better compared to the past 2 days. :)
and suddenly having the feeling of, i don't care what they say..

Cause God knows everything.

Now the only thing i just gotta keep on praying

is for my family to come to Christ someday.

and when that day comes, definitely one of best day of my life :')

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So today my step dad told me a bad news.

Because of the flood in Thailand, his new car will be delayed. Its actually supposed to come in 1 months time. But because of the flood in thailand, it'll take about 6 months.

How bummed i feel wei... 6 months... :'(

I really need the transportation. How to go CUG?
How to go college weiiiiiiiii... :'(

But i believe God has a reason. Maybe He thinks that i'm not ready to have a car yet so i'll just patiently wait and pray that the flood in Thailand will also stop... #prayforThailand #prayfortheworld.

So at the mean time, my mom gotta like wake up uber early to drive me to college. :(

and i will wait patiently.

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I gotta like stop thinking so much cause my pimples are like coming back. O.O

buhh.. but then again, how do i stop myself from thinking.
Whats the mind for. #stress

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and i shall entertain you with some me gusta pics from tumblr. :B

okay that's all for now. :)

Things that moves my heart.

2011-11-14T16:12:00.000+08:00

this song and the lyrics are just plain beautiful...

2011-11-14T15:14:00.002+08:00

You might be the wife,
Waiting up at night
You might be the man,
Struggling to provide
Feeling like it's hopeless

Maybe you're the son,
Who chose a broken road
Maybe you're the girl,
Thinking you'll end up alone
Praying God can you hear me?
Oh God are you listening?

(Chorus)
Am I more than flesh and bone?
Am I really something beautiful?
Yeah, I wanna believe, I wanna believe that
I'm not just some wandering soul
That you don't see and you don't know
Yeah I wanna believe, Jesus help me believe that I
Am someone worth dying for

I know you've heard the truth that God has set you free
But you think you're the one that grace could never reach
So you just keep asking, what everybody's asking

Chorus

You're worth it, you can't earn it
Yeah the Cross has proven
That you're sacred and blameless
Your life has purpose

You are more than flesh and bone
Can't you see you're something beautiful
Yeah you gotta believe, you gotta believe
He wants you to see, He wants you to see
That you're not just some wandering soul
That can't be seen and can't be known
Yeah you gotta believe, you gotta believe that you
Are someone worth dying for

You're someone worth dying for
You're someone worth dying for

Mikeschair - Someone Worth Dying For

What kind of heart doesn't look back.

2011-11-14T11:38:00.005+08:00

Here's a post about my weekends and things that affects me that kills.

My weekends.

Friday
11.11.2011.

Chong visited me at night just to hang out for awhile in my house

and we talked about CAM. :)

He drew this for fun and i just had to take a picture of it cause

somehow i find it funny. hahaha. :P

Saturday

12.11.2011

Went to church for Skit Practice.

it was fun. Not as bad as i thought it would be.

but the only problem i'm having now is that my character that i'm playing,

i gotta be so geram + stress ish that i'm so annoyed + tired of acting over and over

that character. xD

i'm actually annoyed at acting as that character can u believe it.

lol-ed.

then after that teman-ed Bestie MunTheng to find job in One Utama

plus shopping too :)

we took bus together there :)

Then came back around 9 ish. took bus alone at home :S

scary... but Thank God both of us reached home safely :)

It was fun teman-ing her to find job. :)

My dear, you gotta have faith in yourself okay :)

Don't be scared :) Tell yourselves that they're just humans and you just gotta talk

to them like normal and don't be nervous. Cause if you're nervous, it minus of

the first impression already. I'll pray for you on your interview dayy :)
U can do it little one :) Love you !

And sometimes, i gotta learn from those words that i use to tell ppl.

Its so easy to advice someone but i myself fear when it

comes to handling my own problems.

and the biggest problem with me is that i care so much about

what people say/think about me.

and it kills one whole part of me.

Sunday

13.11.2011

My dearest Bestie Jasmine Kweh got baptise! :)

Congratulations my little one! :))

I'm so proud of you! :')

I hope you like those small stuff i got you.

A little something to encourage you :)

and those little notes for everything inside each stuff :)

cause everything i got you, has a meaning to it :)

I pray that you'll continue to grow in love towards God day by day :)

No matter how hard a situation may get, Never let the devil tear you down by making you feel its no point being a Christian. :)

last but not least, love God with all your heart. :) you don't need any guy to make you feel loved But God :)

For the world ( Me, your mom, your bed or anyone else in this world) will definitely fail you.

the ONLY ONE that will NEVER fail you is God. He will NEVER EVER fail you :)

I'm so happy for you :')

had lunch with Selina, Grace, Chong and Jasmine in Tappers too :)

Grace gave me this book :)

Thank you so so so much :')

I'm so blessed being able to have someone to share my christian faith to. :)

I felt like crying when she gave me the book weii.

My mom and step dad got ipad 2 for themselves too.

not for them to play of course. For their business but

yeah, i'm still shocked. Lol!

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Things that i'll probably never forget.

Cause it killed one part of me that it affected me so much.

And its probably the worst i've ever felt throughout this whole year. or my 18 years...

So it was something an aunty said to me.

It literally killed me inside.

Never ever judge someone's faith if you don't know them.

I'm struggling just as much as u don't know me.

So i think instead of saying something that might kill someone,

i think it'll be better to encourage someone...

no i'm not mad at that aunty. and i will never tell anyone which aunty said that to me.

Maybe she didn't intend to say that.

But it just killed one whole part of me and i hate my life even more after that.

I literally hate my life and myself right now.

I'm so torn apart i've been praying and crying but i'm not feeling any better.

I'm so torn apart, i prayed that God will just shortened my life.

I need to talk to Grace...

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so maybe my patience has its limits... i thought i could stand, but i guess no... not anymore.

What i deal with everyday :

listening to the same old thing from my both parents about how they're teaching me about life

but i don't wanna follow their way of life cause that's not how the bible taught me to.

I'm sick of taking orders from something i know i don't wanna follow in life.

I'm sick of listening and knowing that i'm not gonna follow what they say.

I'm so tired... and sick of listening i'm getting mad.

I'm not after money.

And i know what i want!

I'm in a mess........

in a big mes..........

Bible taught us to follow our parents...

But why does everything feels so wrong?

and sometimes i just wish i had parents to support me

especially when i need them to support me...

i just want you guys to support me in my Christian life that's all.

my mom just gave me warning no more activities in church next year as i'll be starting college already.

Why do i always have to go through this.. Am i not big enough to decide myself?

I like serving for God but why does everything feels wrong?

Every day i feel like i'm debating with my own parents. i seriously disagree with them.

don't get me wrong, i love my mom... but it feels so hard to hold on in life.

I just wish Jesus is just in front of me right now.

I would just cry on his shoulder until i've got no more tears inside.

I really need to talk to Grace...

and urghh... love.

My love life is driving me nuts as well.

the closer you get to my friends, the harder for me to get over.

People wish to live forever on earth...

but i cannot wait my life to end so i can just be with Jesus.

and after reading this, please, just don't ask me.
this is all i'm gonna say.

One step closer.

2011-11-11T15:55:00.001+08:00

I'm sick as a GOOSE.

Too many wanton on my table.

within 15 mins i can make like 6 wanton. yeah. setaupad flu. :(

Acting?

act 1 line okay la.

act 13 lines?! *shivers*

just by thinking about it, i can literally pee on my pants. :S

God is with me. yes He is.
and I know when it comes to serving in the Church for God, its hard to say no.
So imma gonna do it with all my heart.

Overcoming my fear that is...

and I pray that my flu goes off by tonight.

I'm so sick i went sushi king and finish up their whole stack of tissue on the table. D:

i'm so sorry sushi king for using up all the tissues! SORRY!

Its actually quite nice.

2011-11-10T12:02:00.000+08:00

This song can seriously make me sleep wei. So soothing. :)

This is pretty awesome :) Duet with Band Perry (: nice :)

This is with Boys II men

Nice beat.

and this is niceeeeeee.

this is with mariah carey

I find the starting catchy xD but this one not say super but not bad la :)

Now you have it and now you don't.

2011-11-09T17:42:00.003+08:00

It hurts so much that just by thinking about it

makes me feel like falling apart and breaking down.

and because of this feeling i feel right now,

i know i've completely lost every thing i once believe in us.

Stop the tape and rewind.

2011-11-09T15:49:00.006+08:00

I shall start from Friday.

urmm didn't go CUG.. :'(
Don't think i'll have the chance to go this whole month too :'(

But yeah saturday.

Went for C.A.M :)

oh how i miss CAM practices and all.
memories :')

and i was in church from 11 - 4 ish. :)

I like to stay in church if i've something to do. yeah :)

then night time went out for dinner with besties :)

So good to see mun theng again after a loooong time :P

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Sunday, went for service then

choir prac (:

Monday

Visited my grandmother.
ahh every time i see her, she sure cry one :'(
and she nearly made me cry wei. :'(
but i was like tahan tahan.

but i can tell you, if you actually see her face when she's crying,
seriously your heart can just break a few times in 1 second wei.

but yeah, there's like bruises at her face until her legs.

then her right hand cannot move so she gotta eat with her left hand.

She can't really walk properly. :'/

I see her also i feel like crying wei. D':

But thank God no broken bone.

and she fell when she was in pasar cause she suddenly felt dizzy then she fell.

Thank God is was during lunch time so 2 malay ppl helped her.
Thank God for the 2 ppl. Thank you so much wei.

She's my last grandparent and i love her so much.

If anything happens to her ah, don't know what to do wei. :'(

i remember when i had to go for NS, she cried cause she was too worried :'(

Came back from Ns she cried too cause she was happy that i don't have to go anymore. :')

I am blessed to have a Grandmother like her.

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After visiting her, i went to One Utama to meet up with my Mom.
whoah. so packed like crazy.

uniqlo has like 3 floors wei. O.O

and bought 1 shirt from there but i think i wanna go back and chg the size.
bought M, its too big. -.-"

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and i got a college bag for myself d :P

ahahhahaha bought a rm200 bag from Charles and keith.

mom had rm500 voucher. :P

and i bought a rm100 purse as well :)

Finally got my letter from sunway :D

YEE HAWWW!

CIMP calendar.

are those pink colour ones, my holiday? :O
if yes ah, WOOHOOOOO! xD

This is near taman bahagia lrt station.

and it seems that the line is always so long.

ppl line up for the asam laksa it seems.

but most of the kuih and what so ever there is nice :)

the line is always long i dunno why they've such good business :O

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mummeh and I. :)

she's so pretty :)
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According to James,

He, David and Daniel going to Sri Aman to lead their CF tmr

with Ps.Aaron.

NOT FAIR! xD

i don't remember getting all these fun stuff during our batch :(

oh wells, I think its good for them to go. :)
Hopefully they'll lead the CF to be a bigger CF and

yeah, they really gotta grow in so many ways.
:)

i miss SA's CF.

haha and i still can't believe i was once a cell leader there. XD

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song to intro : One Direction - Got to be you

oh and i miss one song so much

Ku mahu cinta Yesus selamanya
Ku mahu cinta Yesus selamanya
Meskipun badai silih berganti dalam hidupku
Ku tetap cinta Yesus selamanya
Chorus:
Ya Abba Bapa
Ini aku anakMu
Layakkanlah seluruh hidupku
Ya Abba Bapa
Ini aku anakMu
Pakailah sesuai dengan rencanaMu

We used to sing this in NS. :')
and watching the dance performances in NS makes me wanna rewind back EVERYTHING NOW. :'(
I'm seriously so sad that everything ended so fast. :'(

HAIH. :'(

But i thank God so much for giving me the chance
to see how amazing ns camp is :)

I really like looking back.
But i guess the more i look back, the more i'll feel sad.

Some things just wont happen again.
and i guess if something is gone, its just gone.

the ones that its meant to be will come back.
But it seldom does and therefore, i just gotta accept how life is.
and know that in life, NOTHING is FOREVER...

Only God's love remains.
I dont need anything else but Jesus.
if He's with me, i shall not be afraid about anything.
nor should i even worry about small silly things.
and only WITH God and THROUGH God, things last (:

goodbye. :)

I've like thousands of questions in my head i wanna ask...

2011-11-06T21:47:00.001+08:00

But why do I feel like I don't have the chance to? :'(

"When your heart says do it.
but your head says don't be stupid."

gosh i feel like crying so bad right now.

Hearing Christina Perri - A Thousand Years

makes me feel like crying. :'(

Heartbeats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave
How can I love when I’m afraid to fall
But watching you stand alone
All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow
One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more

Time stands still
Beauty in all she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything take away
What’s standing in front of me
Every breath
Every hour has come to this
One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed that I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more

One step closer
One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more

I think its such a nice song.
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Gonna visit my grandmother tmr.

My sis said she has bruises all over.. :'(

from her face to her legs.

But thank God no broken bone.

Sermon was good today.
Can God trust you when tough times hits you?

or to be precise..

Will you still trust God even if the worst happens to you?

2011-11-05T20:01:00.002+08:00

My grandma fell down yesterday :'(

She has been having problems with her leg adi before this.

Then she fell down when she was at a pasar pagi. :'/

now she can't really walk as much tho. :'(

#Prays

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I fell in love with the way they sang in city harvest kl the other day and they finally made a cover for this.
and they inspire me in many ways.

soh funneh.

2011-11-04T17:08:00.001+08:00

Finally watched this movie.
LOL!
its so funny xD

I watch the full movie from youtube though :)

Loving youtube more than ever :P

and this is such a memorable scene from shrek 3. xD

2011-11-03T17:47:00.001+08:00

I just wish my mom would just TRY

to at least understand me.

God is Perfect.

2011-11-03T13:57:00.000+08:00

Have u ever had so many questions in your mind that
you just need to know?

Here's an inspiring movie.
It not only inspired me but it answers my questions about Christianity. (:

This is such an awesome Christian film.

and its a good movie to let your non-christian friends to watch, seriously. :)
helps you to understand more about what YOU and I should know. :')

I watched the full movie on youtube btw.

so happen i was browsing through movies and i clicked on this one
and decided to watch it. :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mTZv4JIYsK0&feature=related

I miss you. you. you.....

2011-11-02T14:27:00.001+08:00

Working here has made me miss everyone so much more.

I wanna know how's Su theng and Mark now.
are they going good? :)
I wanna know what is eva up to and all.
I wanna know how's my Bravo leader doing now.

and like EVERYONE that i haven't been talking to..

I miss ya'll wei :'(

hopefully december i'll get to see the NS gang again :(:(:(:(

Should not live by what I feel (:

2011-11-02T11:40:00.002+08:00

HELLO NOVEMBER!
forgot to say this yesterday :X hahahahahahahahahahaahhahahahahahahahh

So if i choose to complain about fly here,

it'll probably end up a NEVER ending post.

But yeah, yesterday dunno what happen to him. Hurting all the woman's feeling in my house.

First Me, then my maid, then my mom.

Luckily my sisters not at home or else, WAR wei.

so yeah, mom and fly fought really bad yesterday till i totally forgotten what i was mad

about at fly. I was just so scared. They were yelling and all loudly and all i could do was

pray and hope that we'll just reach home safely. Yeah, they were arguing in the car. sigh.

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Anyways, I've gotta start studying ENGLISH.

yeap. In CIMP, they focused so much on english and if i don't do good ah,

i wont be able to get the ENG4U subject :(
i do wanna get that subject very much. :'( although i know its gonna be uber tough.
reading ppl's comments about it also i can get nervous adi.

dah la i haven't been studying for like a year adi :(

the moment i enter CIMP,
i've got a ENGLISH PLACEMENT TEST.

i honestly don't like stuff like that. its like auditioning. XD
only thing its on paper?

But i will work hard for it.
Cannot let this chance slip off my hands.

2 more months to study english and FIX MY VOCAB :)

and gotta start deciding on which subject i should REALLY take.
feeling so last min wei....

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a song that we always sing in NS Class kerohanian (:

oh how i miss it so much :')

smooch ♥

How can i complain when God has been so good to me?

2011-11-01T12:55:00.000+08:00

Just yesterday I felt like i'm starting to hate my life

and i was complaining about how much people can not

treat others well and stuff.

But to be honest,
God has been so good to me.
and i've been so blind. SO BLIND.

This year, He has not just blessed me with so many things, but

He has also answered my prayers in SO MANY WAYS.

seriously, SO SO MANY ways.
i can't exactly list down all here cause some are just private.. :X
but the ones that i can mention is

NS, yes, in NS he has answered my prayers like a lot.
Like so much. Little stuff that happened there, i pray and pray.

He was like walking with me seriously.
and the whole reviving thing about Creative Arts Ministry.

I prayed for stuff like for my friends and stuff and He gave it all wei.
I wont say what but seriously, if you're in my position, you'd probably feel God is just so nice to me.

Financial problems at home. whoa.
I don't have to worry about no money for college and how much

my mom is struggling anymore?

Before Ns, i can tell you ah, I WAS PRAYING SO HARD that i could at least

go into a good college and i promise i'll study and give my all. And i was like
how is my mom gonna get that amount of my college? I was AFRAID.
now its like i'm finally financially stable. Praise God :')

I also asked for a car and to be honest
I WAS praying so hard for a car.
if you asked me last month right, I'd probably tell you

i want a car so bad but its impossible i'm getting one. LIKE IMPOSSIBLE

cause all my sister gotta like earn their own money and buy for themselves.

and because of the transportation problem i've been going through, I've been praying so hard for a car.
and by end of this year, i'll be getting a car.
Thank God so much really.

and not to mention, suddenly my mom told my step dad today that she's gonna

make a credit card specially for me to pump petrol.
do you not know how i feel?
All that was in my head was i'm so blessed.

Just a few days ago when my step dad told me he'll pass me his car, i was like thinking,

how am i gonna pump petrol and all? Is my mom gonna gimme every month or

do i have to like use my own money or something?

SERIOUSLY, GOD IS SO NICE TO ME REALLY. D":

Although not every prayers He gives me a Yes, but He is indeed a PROVIDER :')

and seriously, this is not it, SO MANY MORE PRAYERS i've been praying for and

He is just slowly answering them.
whether its a YES, NO its not right for you or Not now.

He is indeed an awesome God :)
Amen amen amen.

One of the best book i've read. :)

2011-11-01T11:46:00.002+08:00

I finished reading this book already :)

You can actually finish this book within 2 days but

because i wanted to not finish it so fast cause i just bought it.

But yeah, i finished it in the end within 1 week. xD

One of the best book i've read. :)
probably cause i've never really read much christian books but

i'm so glad i bought this book. :)

So i'm like gonna tell you what i've learn from this book :)

This book has definitely taught me a whole new level of what LOVE really is.

Its practically about questions like teenagers would ask and all :)
but before that they focused on the importance of marriage :)

1) Can marriage really have romance?
Marriage is friendship,

Not just an ordinary friendship,

but the deepest human friendship.
so they focused on why is important to pick someone whom u know that

person can be ur bestest friend in the future and not anyone else.

They focused on how husband and wife should be closer to one another

and not anyone else. Not even ur best friend or relatives.

2) Which kind of marriage is best?
God's plan for marriage.

The kind of marriage that instead of being selfish, they choose to care for each other's

physical, spiritual, sexual, and emotional needs.

marriage is wonderful when the husband is careful to love his wife with
kind, polite, patient love and the wife is careful to respect him.

3) Must I leave my parents?
A man leaves his father and mother, is united to his wife,

and they become one flesh (Genesis 2:24)

leave means: discuss it with each other first.
leave means: she is ur closest relative
leave means: have your own home.

but that doesn't mean u're not supposed to care for ur parents.
U obviously can bring ur parents to stay with you :)

4) How can we see if our love is true?

Unselfish love grows slowly :)

then they gave 8 tests of true love :)
1) The talk-freely test.
can you and your partner talk freely with each other just about anything? :)

2) The habit test
are you willing to spend your whole life with ur partner, even if his/her habits never change?

3)The no-touching test
Do both of you really appreciate each other's personality,
or do you guys just enjoy touching each other's body?

4) The admire test
Do we have reasons for admiring each other...
or do we just have a lovely feeling?

If your love is true, you have solid reasons for saying that he/she will be a great marriage partner :)

5)The knowing-each-other test
Do we know each other... past and present?

6) The love-for-Christ test
Are we helping each other to love Christ more?
Are both of us interested in obeying and serving Christ...
or is just one of us really interested?

7) The giving test
True love is the opposite of self-love.

SELF LOVE says :"Love me. Think of my needs."
TRUE LOVE says: "i will care for your needs"

Do i want to give love and happiness to him/her?
Is he/she a happy person who wants to give love and happiness to me?

8) The forgive-after-quarrel test
In true love, both are sorry to have hurt the other, and both do
not demand their own way.

after a quarrel, can both of us say "sorry"?
can we forgive?
are we unselfish enough to listen to each other's ideas?
can we reach an agreement?

I honestly love the 8 test that they suggested :)
i think its really important to know these stuff before committing urself to any sorts of marriage :)

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This book focused on several things and one of it was
why is it important to not have sex before marriage :)

Sex is not a test of love :)
Sex is God's gift for each husband and wife to enjoy
with each other; and nobody else.

The also mentioned how magically sex is when both of you (husband and wife)
have sex together for the first time. xD

then they also mentioned how bad is it if you go around having sex before marriage
and if you get AIDS.

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many teenagers posted many questions and asking them how to solve their problem

the few ones that i think WE can relate is

1) Will guys sperm become weak ?
2) What can i do when i feel sexy?
3) I feel guilty when my sperm comes out.
4) I have sexy dreams and feelings
5)What should i know about a man?
6)We touch each other in our private parts.
7) I promised God, I will not kiss until
8) perhaps i will fall out of love
9)What things should i look for in a wife?
10)I fear i will be single all my life
11) I love him. He is not a christian
12) We get excited - we remove our clothes
13) My parents argue about money
14) Is she doubting that my love is strong?
15) Why should i marry?
16) I must win her love, or i'll kill myself

there are MANY MANY more questions but these are the ones i think
we can relate but there are so much more might be even related to you.

So this book has taught me SO SO MUCH more just about

marriage and love and sex.

and i like how they really focused on what the bible say and they teach.
Their advice are really helpful :)

so i suggest we all should read this book :)

can't wait to pass it to anyone :D
and i hope it'll change ur perspective on life just as it has changed mine :D

Our God is a loving God (:

2011-10-31T13:49:00.010+08:00

Hello :)

Last week was up down and middle. :)

hahaha isn't life always like that? But yeah its just how u depend to live

your days i guess.

Disappointments everywhere. hrmm.
even the person you thought that wouldn't affect your life, did.

totally regretted going out on friday.

anyways, saturday.

went for Choir prac in the morning.

While waiting for jasmine's baptism class to be over, i was feeling the

FOREVER ALONE-NESS.

LOL-ED.

probably cause i've been alone for monday to friday adi,

being alone in church feels horrible. meh.

then went for planetshakers at night.

it was good. :)

pastor Matt fielder is one comedian wei.
couldn't stop laughing at his jokes.

but totally love what he was preaching.
He was focusing on God's love for us.

many ppl went up for alter call. Praise God :)

but the whole church was filled with lights and everything.

it doesn't feel like the PJEFC i know man.
it feels so different. LOL.

like some disco wei. xD

but yeah the slow worship songs were just so much better :)

had a great night :)

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Sunday, after church went lunch with Jasmine, Chong and Peng. :)
haven't had lunch like that in a long time :)

and then went back to church waiting for choir but

i couldn't tahan waiting so i decided to not go for choir. :X

i decided to walk home under the hot sun.

but amazingly, when i reached home, then only it started raining.
I seriously am Thankful :')
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but i feel like i'm always throwing away the chances i have.

but if you don't, i understand...

maybe memories were just meant to be memories.

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hahah have u ever hold someone's hand and feel that
how nice if this is the hand that i'd be holding on my wedding day some day.

haha it just wont happen y'know.

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felt utterly down yesterday cause the feeling of not being good enough just smack me on the head.
Yeah, no i'm not talking about to a certain guy or anything.
Being not good enough for anyone out there as a friend.

I hate it when at one point someone can treat u nice,
but not so nice after as days passed by.

just cause i'm not that pretty.
just cause of the people i choose to hang out with.

I hate it when ppl think that they're so damn good.
Saying things that might affect someone's day but not realizing it.
It might be something small, but it affects someone by how u react to everything.

I feel like a total sinner for feeling angry.
Totally broke down yesterday when jerald said hi on facebook.
couldn't tahan. So sorry Jerald.

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but yeah, I'm just so sorry for reacting this way.
but i can't take it when u treat someone nice and you thought
hey that person is another friend that i can feel comfortable with but
everything was just WRONG.

i just feel like i don't belong...?

ah. ignored this whole part i'm just ranting.

besides, what have i ever said in this blog that made sense when i'm mad.
haih.

#tornapart.

i just hate the fact that i'm so easily affected of what ppl think about me.
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on the brighter note :

1) C.A.M is finally back again :)

2) I'm getting a car end of this year. fly's car :)

3) i might just perform with my sisters on my eldest sister's wedding ! :D
one whole year to plan though. xD

PRAISE & THANK GOD FOR EVERYTHING.

I wish you could feel it.

2011-10-27T11:42:00.000+08:00

HELLOOO (:

So this is what i did yesterday.

and probably the reason why i didn't go for extended prayer meeting since

that's like my only chance to actually go cause the next day is a holiday. but yeah.

I went to FRIM (:

7 bucks for 3 ppl to enter. LOLED.

sisters forever making my mom mad so they didn't go. =.="

but anyways, the place is huge and

its definitely a good place to go jogging.

its so hutan-ish that it brings back memories of NS :'(

Let God lead you in life :D

mummy lookin up! (:

green trees everywhere :D
i love the smell of the fresh air :)

This thing is as big as my palm. i'm serious.
Probably the biggest i've ever seen in my life :O

the exhausted look. :X

i think now i know where i got my cheekiness from :P
HAHA yup, thats my mom.

oh, ignore my face. I look uber horrible xD

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HAPPY DEEPAVALI to everyone who celebrates it! :)

went to Yamuna's house for her open house yesterday :)

It was really good seeing them again wei :)

it was good seeing

Yamuna, Evelyn, Shereena, kim X, salini, Amithira, Jackson, June chong, Pei Yin, Jocelyn, Alia hamdi,

and meeting new ppl like bernadette and all was great. :)

being able to just catch up with each other feels good :)
Haven't heard salini's loudness, evelyn's loud laugh, jackson's loud speakerness, amithira's jokes, shereena's weirdness in a while :) man i miss them so much wei.

and that bernadette girl is funny. xD

ate so much like a bafoon yesterday man :P
but the food was good :)
Loving the mutton :D

This was made by yamuna :)

so nice right? :D

okayz, time to go off! bai bai :)

Scotty McCreery - The Trouble With Girls

2011-10-25T12:01:00.001+08:00

The trouble with girls is they're a mystery
Something about em puzzles me
Spent my whole life trying to figure out
Just what them girls are all about

The trouble with girls is they're so damn pretty
Everything about them does somethin' to me
I guess that's the way it's supposed to be

[Chorus]
They smile that smile
They bat those eyes
They steal you with hello
They kill you with goodbye

They hook you with one touch
And you can't break free
Yeah the trouble with girls
Is nobody loves trouble much as me

They're sugar and spice and angel wings
Hell on wheels in tight blue jeans
A Summer night down by the lake
An old memory that you can't shake

They're hard to find yet there's so many of em
The way that you hate that you already love em
I guess that's the way it's supposed to be

[Chorus]
They smile that smile
They bat those eyes
They steal you with hello
They kill you with goodbye

They hook you with one touch
And you can't break free
Yeah the trouble with girls
Is nobody loves trouble much as me

The way they hold you out on the dance floor
The way they ride in the middle of your truck
The way they give you a kiss at the front door
Leave you wishing you coulda gone up

And just as you walk away
You hear that sweet voice say
Stay

[Chorus]
They smile that smile
They bat those eyes
They steal you with hello
They kill you with goodbye

They hook you with one touch
And you can't break free
Yeah the trouble with girls
Is nobody loves trouble much as me

EEKSS I LOVE THIS SONG OMGOSH! xD

this is what I call a good song. xD
go SCOTTY! xD
and he just turned 18 not long ago. omgosh. :O
so young yet so awesome. x'D

Lee DeWyze - Beautiful Like You (:

2011-10-25T11:14:00.002+08:00

Everybody wants to
Look into the mirror
And feel a little better now

And everybody wants to
Know there's someone out there
Waiting for you to come around

And I wish that
You could feel it
But you don't choose
To believe it
Cause I know that
You can't see it that way
That way

If you could only just stop stop stop running
If you could only take a second to breathe it in
Everything that you know would be beautiful
Like you
You know they're never gonna stop stop stop your love
Let's pretend that the world is waking up
Everything that we see is beautiful
Like you
Like you

Everybody wants to
Tell someone their secrets
Why don't you tell me now

Well, maybe I can fix this
Then I don't want
You to miss this
And the sun is
Raining down
Yeah

If you could only just stop stop stop running
If you could only take a second to breathe it in
Everything that you know would be beautiful
Like you
You know they're never gonna stop stop stop your love
Let's pretend that the world is waking up
Everything that we see is beautiful
Like you

Sometimes is hard to be
Yourself in this crazy world
Sometimes is hard to breathe
Yeah

Everybody wants to
Know there's someone out there
Waiting for you to come around
Come around

If you could only just stop stop stop running
If you could only take a second to breathe it in
Everything that you know would be beautiful
Like you
You know they're never gonna stop stop stop your love
Let's pretend that the world is waking up
Everything that we see can be beautiful
Like you

Can be beautiful
Like you
Can be beautiful
Like you

Oh, Beautiful

The radio needs more nice songs like this :)
clubbing songs gives me a headache. seriously.

oh one more (:

James Blunt - I'll Be Your Man

Its these simple things that means the Most to me.

2011-10-24T13:04:00.006+08:00

Time to update everything single thing i've no been updating! :)

First I would like to say I'm fully recovered? :) i think la haha xD
Thank God (:

And i am so blessed to have great friends who would bring me to see the
doctor in the middle of the night.

Special Thanks to Christopher for driving me to the doctor
in the middle of the night when i was in serious pain.
Thank you so much for you thoughtfulness of buying 3 big bottles of 100plus
just to ease my pain and all the food advice (:

Special Thanks To Jasmine for teman-ing late night and for the mee hun at night :'))

Special Thank to Chong too cause i know u wanted to teman but
u couldn't cause ur Dad would kill you. xD

Thank You to Hsuzen too for giving ALL the advice on food i should take and all. :')

THANK YOU so much i am so touched :')

Probably the worst food poisoning i've ever went through. o.O

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I was bored the other day and i flipped back my NS book just cause i missed it a lot.

Guess what i found?

HAHA yes. this is 1/10 of my matlamat jangka masa pendek.
sorry for the horrible handwriting cause i hated ns back then i just write like apek.

so yeah. No.4 :(
I skipped CUG last week. yes. i'm guilty.

I wanted to go though but transportation is indeed a problem to me?
and i was still food poisoning (well.. that's not an excuse but yeah)

I really do wanna go i just am having problems.
my personal problems.

It feels hard being in this position of this trying to be closer in Church activities
cause i've got no support from my family especially my parents?
I'm not close to church members and what not.

I feel so hard sometimes i'm not sure why.
I feel sad to see why is it so easy for some ppl to just be in that
nice position where everything seems to be not a problem.
them being in that zone of i am so close to the church people and etc.

But even though everything seems tough, That doesn't mean i'm EVER gonna give up in my christian life.
yeah. I'm not sure anyone understand what i'm trying to say but yeah.

My mom thinks i might change my religion someday and all.
She thinks i might have different thoughts about other religions and all.

She's wrong. I know what I want.
and I know what I live for.

but i honestly feel so alone when i'm trying so hard to just be that girl that
when i wake up, Satan goes "oh crap! she's awake."

Lol. this blog is literally turning into my diary.

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Did i tell you stefenie tan is in my ns book? :P HAHA

the whole NS ppl from MALAYSIA get to see her face. xD

my sister bought all of em last time. Chi sin man chi sin.

but yeah, when i'm bored, i can totally fill up my time when i'm bored.

Since my old house no astro adi :(

Anyways,
On Sunday morning which was yesterday.. I went to City Harvest Church KL

for the first time :)

yeaps Joey drove us there (:
Thank you so much! xD

Jasmine, Chong, Melinda and I :D

IT WAS SO CROWDED wei.
we had to sit on the floor. xD

it was so crowded that everyone was lining up outside while the worship was going on.

and yes we missed worship session. *shrugs*

They Sang

Rockeeter, Dare you to move and 1 more korean song :)
they're awesome pawsome weii.
their voice fits perfectly with each other that it makes it so beautiful :)

I still remember how the first time i found them on youtube.
their O come all ye faithful A capella (:

so here's what the service was like :)
WATCH ! :D

Hear this dare you to move whole video :)i'm serious plug in ur headphones and listen. xD
*goosebumps* :D

*goosebumps*

And the gave the same testimony as the one they gave in s'pore. (:
I somehow feel its nicer to hear live. xD

and the guy that was sitting beside me was crying wei. like not tearing

but really crying with a lot of tears. :/

but he was very nice (:

Great sermon from David Oh too (:

The saddest part is we didn't stay there for long cause we all had to go off to somewhere.

So we TOTALLY MISSED THE PHOTO SESSION WITH THEM :'(

but its okay la. one day we shall see them again :)

Singers like these are the ones that inspire ppl

for they are such a blessing to many :)

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So yeah, after we left City Harvest, Joey dropped

them off at chong's house and we started our journey (:

Yup. To logos hope again (:

I honestly gotta say this was actually really fun and CRAZY.
I feel so crazy going there.

and it was just the 2 of us. xD

The best part was, we went there ourselves without following

Aunty Patsy behind. xD

We followed sign boards and all.

Half way there we made a wrong turning and we went into some ULU PLACE

MAN I TELL YOU. xD yes we sort of got ourselves lost but it was damn fun i dunno why. xD
Then we stopped and ask a guy for directions and

phew, we FOUND OUR WAY to LOGOS! HAHAHAHA!

Seriously, THANK GOD so much wei. xD
Throughout the journey everything was just fine. xD

up till now i still couldn't believe what we both went through yesterday. xD

and i honestly think we can travel anywhere one, just that whether you're brave enough to do so or not.
xD

Thank You so much joey jong for everything yesterday!!

Seriously, great partner to travel with. xD

and we were listening to colbie caillat's album while travelling :P
its OUR SONG wei. xD
Super nice to just listen while travelling. (:
and we kept laughing so much i dunno why....

But good performance wei from James David and the rest (:

Joey was totally in love with one handsome guy on the ship. xD

I bought 2 books after the event though :P

HAHA I LOVE THIS 2 BOOKS THAT I BOUGHT, seriously.

Finally something to suit my needs.

its so good, after finish reading it, i shall pass it down ;)

This book is definitely the most suitable book to guide me for now.

when i bought it, i thought oh, its a good book for me to start off..

when i went home and actually went through the book properly, I ended up falling in love with the book more wei. :"D

(no.i'm not exaggerating..)

This book is suitable for teenagers like us. (:

Its questions we can seriously relate to it (:

I regretted not buying more books weiiii!

2 books for rm28 (:

It was their last night for this Logos Ship to be in Port klang though. :'(
After this they're going to Kuching.

I shall serve on that ship one day if i ever got a chance. (:

and joey was like "after studying for 5 years then i'll go on that ship for 2 years and then after that get married."
HAHA this girl planned everything adi. xD

so yeah, we left the ship at 6.30p.m.
both of us didn't wanna leave wei... but it was getting late adi. :'(
so bummed..

but its true, the whole idea of this ship is just inspiring u know.

God is indeed amazing :)

anyways, enough for now :P

Song for the day : What means the most to me by Colbie Caillat (:

Some how I know I will find a way..

2011-10-21T16:58:00.002+08:00

I skipped work 3 days this week wei.
There goes RM150.

But yeah, my stomach feels like it has thousands of bacteria in it.

It hurts and i'm not sure why.

I'm like so scared to put anything in my mouth cause

i scared it'll be worst again..

@.@

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I wish suddenly some truck would just drop by

and give me all the movies in the world. :P

I NEED MORE MOVIES.

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Oh and guess what?

http://www.facebook.com/event.php?eid=262197707157302

Definitely a moment i've been waiting for :P
yes, JAYESSLEE will be in CITY HARVEST KL :)
yay! eventho i wont be going for their concert,
going for a service with them there is probably good enough :D

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i suddenly feel ariel is such a nice name don't chu think so? xD

I've been watching lots of disney movies these days. :P
was watching little mermaid that day and hahaha i seriously think
the world should create more disney movies.

UPIN AND IPIN,
WAKTU REHAT and ETC is just DUMB. =.="

No OFFENCE.

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okayz my tummy is driving me crazeh.
gotta go now buhbyes :)

Classic.. Classic. :')

2011-10-19T14:01:00.001+08:00

Was watching this today on youtube.

Totally made my day wei. TOTALLY :)
and its funny too. x)

Disney movies are just classic you know :)

Song for the day: I Still Believe - Hayden Panettiere (:

despite whatever is going on with the world,
I still do believe :)

How i miss being a kid... :')

movie marathon.

2011-10-19T11:17:00.000+08:00

I've been filling up my time with movies.

ratings? 4?
yeah. definitely not as good as the one hilary duff acted in.
this one really suck in a way.
no doubt Selena Gomez can dance. lol

Pretty meaningful.
Not like a wow love story but its good.
I definitely learned something from this movie.
We just gotta fall in love again and again every single day with your husband. Lol!

i cried in this movie. Lol! He can really cry though.
for the fact that they love each other so much even being miles apart.. *touching*

I re-watched this movie again cause the full movie was on youtube.
yes, i've been watching movies on youtube.
i don't even have to wait for it to load.

Watched this on youtube too.
this is definitely not as good as mean girls 1.
i didn't really enjoy this though. LOL!

I re-watched tangled on youtube too.
cause i just loveeee this movie.

Crying out silently

2011-10-19T10:10:00.002+08:00

these 3 days has been the worst days i could ever ask for.
and somehow it just gets worst every single day.

THIS DUMB FOOD POISONING IS KILLING EVERY INCH OF ME.

I'm so tired of feeling like vomiting but i can't.
probably the worst i've ever experienced.

Maybe cause the other last time i didn't had to go to work.

Fought with my mom this morning and my day just got even worst.

I feel so horrible right now.

My stomach has been such a pain i feel like just stabbing my stomach and

let all the air goes out.

I've been trying all sorts of ways.

I can't take this feeling anymore really. URGHH

I HATE IT SO MUCH.

have i not been praying enough?
i've been praying for this pain to go away but i just feel worst day by day.

i really am breaking down physically and emotionally.

URGHHHH!

and now i can't even feel happy eating. URGH.

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and i gotta admit, last week and this week is probably

one of the suckiest week i've ever encounter this whole year.

i'm driving myself crazy. Not sure whether its work or what

but i just can't stand everything.
i need to work my brain or my brain will just stop working.

i feel so mad now, i can just yell at anyone i see.

#ANNOYEDTOTHEMAX

talk about bad mood, today
i'm having some serious bad mood.

stay away.

2011-10-14T16:24:00.000+08:00

day 4.

the feeling of not hearing from you is so not nice.

knowing that i can't see you this weekend is

even worst.

Life is a thin line.

2011-10-13T15:39:00.000+08:00

REST IN PEACE

UNCLE RAYMOND :'(
James Lee's uncle.

He's indeed a very nice man.
When i served him in kimchi haru last time, we talked like friends.

and i'm sure He has been a blessing to many.

He is with the Lord now.

Condolences to the Chew family and also the Lee family who

lost their beloved Uncle.

My Dreams seems to be bigger than those fairytales.

2011-10-13T13:24:00.003+08:00

If i could be an animal one day.. what would it be?

A BLUE WHALE.

really. i really would love becoming a whale for a day.
Cause ze blue whale is the biggest animal on earth :)

and it feels so calm being under the sea. :)

When i'm at the swimming pool, going under water makes me feel like a whale. xD
and i LOVE that feeling :)
Peaceful and all you can hear is the water sound :)
if only i can hold my breath as long as 1 hour. :)

i wanna be a blue whale for a day....

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What i really want right now?

A dog. So i can hug it and cry my heart out. :'/

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as weird as it is, i was searching stuff about whales just now

and suddenly feel like being those people who learns about the sea creatures and all :)

This is why i wanna go snorkeling and scuba diving so bad y'know :)
I wanna get a scuba diving license one day :)

more than u can ever imagine.

God's beautiful creation is not only on land you know :)

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The deep blue ocean is where i wanna be :)

seriously.

sigh. i've got too many dreams, will it ever come true? :/

i've never sat on a PLANE before. :(
I've never go cruising on a SHIP before :(

i've only sat on a boat before that's for sure. xD

Turn my eyes upon Him.

2011-10-12T10:35:00.001+08:00

I started off my day by doing something

that i don't know whether i should do or not.

and so I did.
But like i didn't get what i expected to get?

Even though i kept saying " i'm not gonna let this affect my day " in my head..

But i know that there's this huge part of me feeling mad and disappointed.

Its like you did/say something kind to someone but

u just didn't get what u expected someone to say back to you?

As bummed as a normal person would be, i was bummed and mad.

to the extend i feel like not doing ANYTHING anymore.

the feeling of why did i even bother trying came up to me over and over again.
Maybe everything that happened all this while meant nothing to you i guess? :'/

yeah.. i feel heartbroken. Utterly sad and I wish i didn't had any feelings for you.
I wish i was still saying "ew. no way. Never gonna happen"

But then i have this thing on my phone that gives me a bible verse every single day.

and today's one was Be Kind And Merciful

If you love those who love you, what benefit is that to you?

For even sinners love those who love them.

And if you do good to those who do good to you, what benefit is that to you?
For even sinners do the same.

And if you lend to those from whom you expect to receive,

what credit is that to you?
Even Sinners lend to sinners, to get back the same amount.

But love yours enemies, and do good, and lend expecting nothing in return,

and your reward will be great and you will be sons of the Most High,

for he is kind to the ungrateful and the evil.

Be merciful, even as your Father is merciful
Luke 6:32-36 (ESV)

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sigh. life is hard isn't it?
If only i wouldn't feel a thing when someone strikes me at the back.

If only i wouldn't feel a thing when someone doesn't treat me the way i wanna be treated.

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I'll get through this.

You are my refuge, You are my strength. (:

2011-10-11T13:39:00.000+08:00

For now, i'm done thinking (:

i don't wanna worry or think too much anymore.
Let it flow as it is? :)

God has His own plans.

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I haven't been to the cinema for quite some time adi.

I wanna watch What's your number? hahah (:
anna faris again :P LOL!

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and this omgosh! SO CUTEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE xD
HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA! EEEKSS!

especially when they start singing. xD
oh oh and the little main penguin voice *HEARTS*

Random facts about me

2011-10-10T11:23:00.001+08:00

Random facts #394 : I liked a guy before for 5 years man :P
Yesterday we were talking about it and suddenly i realized that 5 years passed just like that. haha :)
i still can't believe i hold on to something for 5 years even though i knew i wasn't supposed to hold on to? haha xD

Random fact #326 : I will not get into a relationship with a guy until
i really truly trust and love God with all my heart more than i love the guy.

Random facts #286 : When i'm sad, i really really really wanna be alone.

Random facts #184: I'm always waiting waiting waiting. Sometimes i don't really

know what i'm waiting for. yes, i can be so lost at times..

Everything that is in my head and heart right now.

2011-10-10T11:05:00.003+08:00

Ever feel like just locking up yourself in the room and just cry?

For some reason i don't know why but i feel like crying.

crying till i feel slightly better...

and this is definitely not because of my monthly visitor. lol.

but its like i'm finally feeling again.
before this, i can't even feel a thing.

I'm glad at least now i'm feeling like a michele again. Lol.

but yeah, i have no idea whats wrong.

but i just feel sad?

like seriously, i feel so sad.

i honestly don't know why?

but the sad feeling is like i just lost something important...

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I miss the chance to look at the beautiful moon last night.

bummer.

I was so sleepy that i slept around 9 something.

:'/

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Thank God for Grace (':

She's indeed a blessing to me.

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what if i wait, wait and wait..

but at the end it all turns out to be a waste?

i shall take this time to actually really trust God more on this...

probably time is all i need.

just now the office blacked out. haha
it was fun. xD

Because i feel like looking back :)

2011-10-07T12:18:00.000+08:00

For some reason i just like this photo although i hate my face here so much -..- haha :)

walking walking to the place where we normally have our riadah :)

my crazy dorm members :)

first few days in camp :) kena burn kao kao.

BRAVOOOOO :D

CAMERA SHY. :P stop right now. thank you very much.


okay kantoi sudah. xD i was talking on the phone with chong i think and then	they took a photo. =.="

doughnuts:D yummyy

hehehe chiaoz!

is this just a temporary feeling or is this true?

2011-10-07T10:18:00.001+08:00

#feelinghopeless

I've this sudden feeling of i'm not feeling as much as I used to anymore?

hrmm..

its not normal. really. I'm still searching myself.

and i'm also searching whether is this just temporary only or what?

But yeah, Just gonna let things flow..

I guess i'm pretty tired of waiting sometimes?
the feeling of waiting for nothing is gonna happen...

like waiting for the impossible.

random. lol.

urmm i kinda like joe brooks :)

song to intro : Joe brooks - superman (:

this plant is so cool. (:

goodbye.

I just remembered something :P

2011-10-04T13:26:00.000+08:00

Oh how i miss teasing Eva and Liew together in NS :P

when they fight and all. seriously LOL! xD

one side we'll be comforting Liew saying don't give up and stuff. xD
one more side telling eva to give him a chance. xD

HAHA :')

OH BOY I MISS NS EVEN MORE NAO. :(

Pull me close to your heart.

2011-10-04T11:25:00.001+08:00

Ever felt like doing something big in your life that you've NEVER expected to do in your life but you just don't know how things might turn out or you're just so afraid that everything will not turn out what you expected it to?

bombombombom.....


i just gotta believe right. :)

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Watching So You Think You Can Dance

in the morning just makes your whole day feel like dancing :)

really ah, i wish i could have the chance to travel around the world

and learn various dance from all the world :)

then my life is COMPLETE :D

okay maybe not so complete as i have to many dreams and wishes i would

love to complete :P

if only i was thaaat good to dance contemporary. *dreams* :/
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its last years one. :P

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my mom is serious about not letting me to get baptise yet wei.

she just said NO NO NO. NOT NOW.

i believe God has a reason right.. yeah.
I will just wait.

Don't walk away from me...

2011-10-03T10:27:00.006+08:00

Blessed Morning :)

Updates!

PADINI WAREHOUSE SALE IN SHAH ALAM on friday was probably a big mistake to go :P hahaha! i mean okay, MEMANG it was cheap like everything was 5 bucks only. But it was so crowded that i nearly died. No really, i literally felt like vomiting on someone. So at first i went with my mom and she couldn't stand so she went home. Then soon Jasmine came and she got stuck outside for like an hour plus? :O I walked in to the warehouse sale myself and i couldn't get something really nice cause practically everyone took every nice thing. so ahh whatever. xD

i only got myself 4 stuff. Even then i only like 1 of my stuff. =.="

the others, aiya, it was cheap so oh wells xD

but really. the crowd is worst than going into a concert or something. *faints*

How desperate ppl can get. xD
everything on that day was a disappointment wei :( but its okay. its all good...

LOGOS HOPE on saturday :)

Chong drove us there following my aunty's car from behind. :) Its actually not that far. LOL!

It was nice i guess. if the weather wasn't hot then yea. xD
because of this, instead of wanting to sit on a plane, now i wanna sit on a plane and be on a ship someday :)

hahahaha The whole idea of logos is really interesting seriously :) they've about like 400 ppl in that boat and they're all Christians from around the world :) And majority inside are ang mos xD hahaha yes joey was drooling all the way. :P

How i wish i could go for the 2 months thing being on the ship with them going to places like Sabah and Sarawak. :( i really really would love doing that man. One, cause i get to gain experience. Two, I get to like do missionary work man! Three, I get to travel :P but yeah, truly inspired u know. :)

suddenly think that probably doing missionary work full time in the future is actually not such a bad idea. my mom would just probably murder me that's all. :S

Gotta start on what i think its right doing! Don't know whether i can consider that as God spoke to me or what...
But yeah, i'm sure with this we'll be able to reach out to our close friends first :)

And i am very happy for Jasmine to sign up for Baptism class :D

If only my mom would just give me the green pass! :'(
But i believe He has a reason for this.

But if you hold tight, shadows will be lost in the light.

Oh cos sometimes, fate and your dreams will collide.

So don't walk away from me,

Don't walk away from me,

Don't walk away from me.

Song for the day : Joe Brooks - Holes Inside (:

goodbye ♥

Nostalgia

2011-10-02T20:28:00.000+08:00

and Today i've finally decided to have another big dream or mission or whatever u call it :P

probably 1 of my mission before this was to REVIVE C.A.M again :)

now i've got 2 :)

Before reaching out to others or my family, i guess reaching out among

my besties first would be a better first step to take :)

so yeah, still planning planning

but i'm definitely gonna make it happen. :)

and we're gonna grow :)

May God be with me and us in this :)

imissyouso. :(

Omgosh :')

2011-10-01T18:21:00.000+08:00

Watch this video! awhhh so sweetttt! :')

so so so sweet seriously :') ♥

2011-10-01T17:57:00.004+08:00

HELLO OCTOBER. (:

GOODBYE SEPTEMBER.

It has been a good month although there were ups and downs. xD

will update on life soon!

i miss you.

I can be such a chicken really.

2011-09-29T12:17:00.001+08:00

i guess Melvin calling me chicken for a reason.

sigh. :/

and when i manage to had the guts to do something unusual, it doesn't turns out

as how i wanted it to be. :/ knew i should just wait.

waiting wont hurt though. since i've been waiting all my life.... lol!

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anyways, i've been driving to work lately like almost everyday.

and walking back from work. LOL!

i've been doing the dishes, preparing meal myself and practically doing everything myself

except washing my own clothes la but yeah.

I've never felt so independent :O xD

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song for the day : The Click Five - Don't Let me go.

hope to get some good clothes from the sale tmr. :)

- Michele lim ♥

The only thing i'm afraid right now.

2011-09-28T16:51:00.000+08:00

is that i'll not have a chance to bring my Mom, sisters and the friends that i love to know The Father. :'/

reading Matthews 24 is making me scared that

i might just not have much time left? :'/

:B

2011-09-28T13:39:00.002+08:00

That guy is hsuzen's guy friend! :P

hahaHAHAH he's KOREAN *drools*

he looks quite good looking. :P

he's korean with a canadian accent. :)

hahaaa so sexy xD

I dun mind being hsuzen's position now man.:D
HAHAHAHAHA!

and then after that i skype with joey :P hahaha!

i've been skyping a lot o.O

check this out :) hehe

http://flavors.me/michelelimm

i was bored :P

I try to grab hold of it but it fades... why?

2011-09-28T11:48:00.000+08:00

A little bit of here and there.

So this week, every time i enter my office

the first song i'll on is Chris Tomlin - All to us.

love that song so much really.

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and today i brought my webcam to work.
talk about cheating on my job. LOL!

but seriously, i got not much to do that's why. xD

and this was by accident. And it was only 1 photo so yeah.
This is david. there was james, daniel and grace.
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its funny how one day you're like, whoa, i'm gonna be strong.

and the next thing you just feel that the feeling isn't the same anymore. you just suddenly feel weak at one point?

and this is a personal reason so yeah. Not broken about life or what so ever...

yes he is. So i'm not afraid. Nor i don't have to worry about certain stuff in life.

Seeing those ppl tweeting about Sorry Jesus

just makes me feel damn sad seriously. it was trending.

They're not confessing their sins but they're insulting Him.
LIKE JUST STOP IT WEI. Please.

this reminds me of what i just read the other day.
Godlessness in the last days. ( 2 Timothy 3:2)

and when i told hsuzen she said she did her devotion today

and it says something like don't apologize to Jesus.

Its not a coincidence to me i know.

just wish humans weren't this bad.... :'/

and we should all start praying for the world more.. :'(

And pray for the Philippines as well. :'/
Heavy storms and typhoon going on there.

#prayfortheworld

A friend that i love very much :')

2011-09-26T12:36:00.005+08:00

She's a friend i met from NS.
seriously i love her in so many ways.

Although she doesn't speak that good in english but we communicate in english :)

We're always encouraging each other and

supporting each other in many ways :)

hearing each other out and just by being a friend makes me feel loved :')

Definitely one girl i wanna bring her to know the Father (:

I miss her so much :')

Song to intro : Mr. Know It All - Kelly Clarkson

For He is the only one who would never let me go.

2011-09-26T12:14:00.002+08:00

So i had pretty much good weekend cause i'm learning more and more :)

but in between those times that i'm learning, i was actually going through a rough time with myself.

The DRY feeling in my life.

But yeah, how foolish i was to not focus on God but worry about other stuff that i'm not supposed to be worrying?

I was complaining about how i am at times when i should be happy that God made me this way and i should just rejoice in the Lord.

What a fool i am at times eh? :'/

on friday, Jonathan Ngan shared in CUG.

It was really nice and inspiring. :)

He shared about how he started his life as a normal ordinary guy who was emotional and

everything else. then he went to melbourne to study and how he started going into the worship team in planetshakers :)

With how his Dad wasn't a christian and he was studying engineering in melbourne and God called him to go into the bible college school :)

and he talked about dreams and visions.
like have u actually felt discourage by someone? Like you've a passion to do something but
suddenly someone just brings ur dreams and hope down till at the end of the day, u just don't have the burning passion for that anymore.

or that you've actually discourage someone.
So he was like never stop dreaming and always try to keep that dreams up and

always encourage others.

Then he talked about the HEART :)

How is it important to have a heart in everything you do for God.

U don't have to be a very outspoken person.

or you don't have to be a spontaneous/ handsome/ smart person.

all you need is a Heart for God :)

I find that super nice to hear cause to be honest, many of us are not like very outspoken or

smart in so many things.

for a person like me filled with flaws and not being very smart in many ways plus shy,
feelings like you're not good enough sometimes do come up in my mind.

but after hearing what he said like All u need is a good heart that loves God

and follow His words and be passionate for God.

A good heart is indeed very important :)

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Sunday was service was good too :)

The pastor talked about how important it is to read the bible.
Although the service was pretty short, but it was definitely short, simple and the point is very direct :)
very meaningful :)

I enjoy service like that :)

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SEEDS in DUMC by footstool playes
was awesome :)

many short stories with full of meaning behind it :)
I really really like the meaning behind it :)

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Why was i worrying again? :) i don't need to worry for i know He has every plans for me.
and people might just tear u down in something, but never give up in something that u believe :)

I believe God places me in there for a reason. Whether its something i thought it would be or not, its still a gift that i'm never gonna regret :)

Have a Good day. :)

I enjoy working like that :P

2011-09-23T17:23:00.000+08:00

Bestie Jasmine Kweh visited me today! :D

so we talked for exactly 2 hours during lunch hour then

she went up to my office and i gave her a place to sit and use the comp :P HAHA

She's like a boss u know. sitting in the room xD

but yeah, that's her being shy shy :P

and she bought me wondermilk :')
So touched really :') Mwahs! ♥

and we started viwawa-ing like crazy.

I am TOTALLY cheating on my job. :X

hehe

not to forget, thank you for this bag too! :D

i love it :)))

weekends! here i come.

You are my strength..

2011-09-22T14:58:00.002+08:00

So this morning i woke up with a horrible feeling.
Call it PMS, call it didn't have a good sleep, call it whatever,

i know i just didn't feel good at all.

Its like i just don't wanna get out from my room kinda thing.

I HATE my feelings sometimes. It drives me nuts.

and I might not be able to control how i'm feeling sometimes,

but accept me as i am. Don't use it to critisize me in front of others.

i'm living in a messed up life.

and i'm so messed up that i break down easily.

Call me lack of love or what so ever, i don't know.

all i know when i'm breaking down, i'm really tearing apart.

and if i do cry because i'm breaking down, i do feel the pain. Not because i simply

just feel like crying.

I'm emotional yes.

my emotion goes haywire at times.

I can like be the most hyper girl in the room at one moment.

and the next thing, i'm like all emo-ish.

don't know why i'm saying all these but yeah, its probably something that i've

been keeping in my head for a veryy longg time perhaps?

i wish i had someone to just hug and tell me its gonna be fine.

I too, need a shoulder to cry on...

but yeah, i've great friends who constantly makes me happy.

I'm not complaining.

Continuing about my day.

yes, i dislike mornings that makes me feel like, i should just continue sleeping instead of waking up.

and suddenly my step dad just came back with a hot lin chee kang

and he put on my desk after lunch.

can't believe i'm saying this, but do you know how good it feels suddenly?

Thoughts like,

"God is such a wonderful provider."

"my step dad can be very nasty but he's actually not bad at all."

came up to my mind immediately.

Amazing how 1 lin chee kang can make someone's day right?
not the lin chee kang, but for the fact that someone i don't really like at times thought of you while doing something out side. its a nice feeling.

i feel better.

i really wanna thank God for Grace, Joyce and also Hsu Zen.
people that i can share my faith.

also, check this tumblr out :)
http://everlastingjesus.tumblr.com/

She inspires me in a way. Do check out her tumblr to find out why. :')

homgosh. :O

2011-09-21T13:00:00.003+08:00

She looks so much prettier last time :O

this is the Christina Aguilera i miss man.
wei.. she damn amazing wei. She looks so young but her voice. MY GOODNESS!

and today i'm listening to all her old songs :P
M2M, Spice Girls later :B hehe

old songs are better now.

Once in a while punya social life :)

2011-09-21T12:27:00.003+08:00

Hello!

I shall blog about my day yesterday :)
after Work i went out with Christopher for dinner and supper?

i tell you... dahla so fat, EAT some more.. D': his fault.

purposely wanna make me fatter wan i know! :P

don't know why all the guys around me are the reason why i've all the fats on my bodeh.

so we ate chili pan mee at chow yang for dinner. :)
then we went to citta mall to chill out.

then after that we went all the way to sunway giza wanted to get the buy 1 free 1 snowflake
but we didn't cause the line was.... LONG LIKE CRAZY. O.O

so we ended up in tutti frutti.

MAIN REASON WHY I'M BROKE : FOOD.

thank God we shared it so cheaper? :X

but yeah, because of yesterday, i ended up bringing my own food to work.

don't wanna buy food for lunch today d. :'(

ONE of my FAVOURITE DOG

anyways, we were talking about chow chow yesterday! heeeehee ♥

and he told me, do you know how chow chow existed? Last time they said cause there was a bear and a dog mated. so chow chow existed.

i actually believed it for 3 seconds. xD

My stomach is aching right now cause my lunch yesterday was....

HOT + SPICY and EVERYTHING ELSE THAT BURNS !

*rubs tummy* :'(

Song for the day : About You Now - Miranda Cosgrove

originally by sugarbabes lol :)

walking away ♥

My Hari Raya Trip ; Johor (:

2011-09-20T11:00:00.001+08:00

So i took some pictures. Decided to post it up :P

its so kampung that u can actually see so many animals walking around just like that :)

but i like cause in the city area, u don't see cows, goat or lamb just walking like its their own road :P

Sitting on the boat is fun :B

so yeah, this is the tiny little fish i caught.

Yes it might be tiny but not easy okay to catch a fish :P
cause the fishes are pretty smart okay. They nibble bit by bit and not one whole bite :P

hahaha well at least i caught one for my first time fishing :D

star fish and baby crab :)

going home !

but yeah stayed there for 1 night.

where's the there? Kelong :)

its like in the middle of the sea kinda thing :)

yahh.. :) and then one night in step dad's sis' house :)

that's all for now :)

oh btw, check out my tumblr :)

http://michelelimm.tumblr.com/

I'm starting to be active in it cause i've finally a friend who uses it and that is james lee. LOL!
you guys should start using tumblr more too :P it'll be fun :)
but now i've too much to manage :P but oh well, not like i'm busy so..... xD

bye bye ♥

Dramatically Simple ♥

Teach me to...

Simply cause i believe in it.

why don't i feel the hype?

What has been running through my mind...

i honestly don't understand...

Praise God for a great year. :')

You're my all in all.

He loves you and I ;)

and the countdown begins... :)

i'm holding on.

Do this personality test :)

Finally, stepping into the cinema :P

Such a beautiful mess.

*facepalm* moment xD

Wanna movie marathon with me? :P

Tired of running on this race track.

As you do everything you do to the glory of the One who made you.

I tend to react the opposite sometimes.. :/

A girl thing.

This is indeed a very nice story book :')

The moment you know its not gonna be the same anymore..

its gonna be a busy december.

This world is filled with broken people.

Glee :)

Where did it go?

Inspired to say a few words again.

Gotta go all out!

I was definitely wrong.

Love is forever a circle unbroken.

just so great.

You're worth it, you can't earn it.

Things that moves my heart.

this song and the lyrics are just plain beautiful...

What kind of heart doesn't look back.

One step closer.

Its actually quite nice.

Now you have it and now you don't.

Stop the tape and rewind.

I've like thousands of questions in my head i wanna ask...

soh funneh.

God is Perfect.

I miss you. you. you.....

Should not live by what I feel (:

How can i complain when God has been so good to me?

One of the best book i've read. :)

Our God is a loving God (:

I wish you could feel it.

Scotty McCreery - The Trouble With Girls

Lee DeWyze - Beautiful Like You (:

James Blunt - I'll Be Your Man

Its these simple things that means the Most to me.

Some how I know I will find a way..

Classic.. Classic. :')

movie marathon.

Crying out silently

Life is a thin line.

My Dreams seems to be bigger than those fairytales.

Turn my eyes upon Him.

You are my refuge, You are my strength. (:

Random facts about me

Everything that is in my head and heart right now.

Because i feel like looking back :)

is this just a temporary feeling or is this true?

I just remembered something :P

Pull me close to your heart.

Don't walk away from me...

Nostalgia

Omgosh :')

I can be such a chicken really.

The only thing i'm afraid right now.

:B

I try to grab hold of it but it fades... why?

A friend that i love very much :')

For He is the only one who would never let me go.

I enjoy working like that :P

You are my strength..

homgosh. :O

Once in a while punya social life :)

My Hari Raya Trip ; Johor (:

facepalm moment xD